HEARTSlove is sweet
love is blind
love is seldom kind
and love is so very hard to find
when to him i gave my heart away
thats when my wounded heart he did betray
why does he listen to another
who only wants to turn him into her lover
why can't he see the games some girls will play
just to turn him around and steal him away
how could it have happened this way
love is hard
love is cruel
any lover is a fool
and the cruelest lies were her tool
if i could believe in love more
if i could believe love is what life has in store
if i had hope that love is for me
then this sadness i feel would never be
if he would just be my friend
then these tears runing down my cheeks would end
and in time my heart would mend
a long time ago i came online to get a chance to talk to someone. i never thought i could make him love me, but i just wanted to be with him for a little while. just to be friends with him. i talked to him finally and then he liked me.he said i was a beautiful person and a sweet girl. then after a long time this other girl came and she was in the chat room all the time. all day every day. and i just couldn't be in there all the time. then i was gone for a few days and then i came back, and he was talking to me and he said he missed me. and she got mad and she loged out. and she wouldn't let him talk to me at all. she was jealous. then she started telling him that i was fighting with her. it wasn't true, i was never in the chat room long enough to fight with anybody. and it just got worse and worse. at first he didn't believe her. but she just kept accusing me of stuff, and i never got a chance to explain. she didn't want him to talk to me at all, because then he would have figured out that she was lieing about me. so she started complaining i was saying things to "hurt her" and he asked me why i was "trying to hurt her" and i said i never tryed to hurt anybody. but he didn't listen to me. only to her.
now he hates me. because he thinks i'm a different person. he thinks i am like what she told him about me. she got friends of hers to pose as me and pretend to fight with her. and she broke into my email account, and sent me mean emails. she copied my words and changed them, and then showed them to him,and said i hurt her. i didn't say that. she changed my words. what i really said was "you make me sick...why can't you just ignore me....like he told me to do..." but she changed it to 'you make HIM sick...' it doesn't even make sense the way she says i said. but he believed it. by that time he would believe any mean thing she said about me.
but whatever i said to her, none of it was as mean as the things she said to me, and said about me behind my back...and did to me. she had a friend of hers pose as me,for weeks, and say horrible ugly disgusting crazy things useing my screen name. just to make everybody hate me and think i am crazy. and every body in the chat room believed it.
but i wouldn't have believed that anybody would
have gone that far,and done something that
mean...because of jealousy...if i hadn't seen it myself. and i know it was her...this jealous girl,who got him to do it, because he was also saying things that made me know that he was trying to make it look like i was mad at her...and look like i was fighting with her. it was to prove to this guy that she wants,that she wasn't lying about me.it was all a long horrible trick that she played on me.
all i ever wanted was just to talk to him. just to be friends with him. but she doesn't want any other girl to talk to him at all. shes just jealous. but if she admitted that to him. it wouldn't work. so she made him hate me by making him feel sorry for her. and making me look like a mean girl. its the other way around. she is the one who does all the fighting. it hurts so bad that he still is so mad at me for nothing. just because of her. it hurts so much that she has gotten what she wanted this way. she sent me a mean email by the name of "you'ra loser".thats what she is so happy about. that she won by lieing and being sneaky. and i can't do the things she can. and i wouldn't. i wouldn't be like her. i can't be like her. i don't want to be like her. he still doesn't know what she did, and it hurts so much that he still believes her. it hurts that he won't even talk to me at all now. and that he doesn't know that the real reason he doesn't,is that she doesn't want him to, because then he might hear the truth. and shes afraid of the truth.it hurts so much to know that people can be so mean. so cruel. i don't blame him for not seeing through her, though. no one else saw through her lies either. he just doesn't know what she's really like. its not his fault.
i don't have anybody to talk to at all now.because everybody else is mad at me too because of her. she said to me that she wants me to leave the chat room and never come back, and that everybody in there hates me. thats because she got her friend to pose as me. they must have been doing for a long time. because i would come backto the chat after a few days and nobody would talk to me, but they would starta fight with me and ask me why i was fighting with her. but i hadn't even been there when theysaid. i couldn't understand why for a long time. but after a long time of that, then,i realised that someone was posing as me. but i still couldn't stop them.
and i know she was the one who got them to do it, because they would always blame me for fighting with this girl. but i never did. it was a poser. it was a friend of hers who she got to fake fight with her. just to make me look like a mean girl.
now i don't have anybody to talk to at all. because everybody hates me. because she wants them to.because she deliberately made everybody hate me. and i have no one to talk to at all because she broke into my email account and now i can't even use email either. i have no one to talk to. i feel so bad. i have so much pain. this has gone on so long. years and years. she started in on me way back before Christmas. but i have been trying to talk to him since even longer
ago than that. it hurts so bad. i cry my self to sleep every night. but i still love him. thats why it has gone on so long. i still love him. thats why it hurts so much.
i feel like i have a knife in my heart. it hurts. it hurts. my heart hurts. my tears...i cry all the time...i'm crying now..tears..................................
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