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Submitted by Rene Allen from Spring Texas USA
Date: Tue Jul 10 02:04:58 2001
AJ,I'm so proud of you. Most people never take responsibility and never seek help. Just know that you will always be loved and wanted. I will keep you in my prayers always.
Submitted by Betzy from Moca Puerto Rico Puerto Rico
Date: Tue Jul 10 02:01:01 2001
A.J. & the Boys
I just wanna tell you that I'm very happy that you admitted you had a problem, but I'm also very sad about this whole situation. When I saw this in TRL I was heart broken about the news. I love you very much and I hope you get better soon. I know how terrible it is for the Boys 'cause my dad had depression and it is so sad, the problem is that he didn't want to admit he had a problem, unlike you. I admire you and I truly hope you get better soon, I will be praying for you everyday. Love always a Puerto Rican fan, Betzy :)
Submitted by Angelica from Santa Clara CA USA
Date: Tue Jul 10 02:00:20 2001
A.J
Well I dont know if your really going to get this. But It really hurt me to hear that you were going to go to rehab. My father went to rehab for the same thing. So I know what your family and friends are going through. I'm glad that you went for help.
A.J I will keep you in my prayers and in my thoughts every day till you get better. You need to put your faith in God if you want to be heald. Just leave your problems at the foot of the alter and tell God to forgive you of your sins and just leave all your problems in Gods hands. Because through God all things are possible.
A.J. I have a couple of scriptures for you. Ephesians 5:18 "And do not be drunk with wine, in which is dissipation;but be filled with the spirt.
2 Corinthians 1:3-4 "Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort those who are in any trouble, with comfort with which we our selves are comforted by God."
A.J. I'm a huge fan of yours I will always be a huge fan of yours. No matter what tribulations you go through. But put your faith in God. Through God all things are possible. A.J. The only thing me and the other fans can do is keep you in our prayers. It's all up to you (and God) to work this problem out.
Well I have to go. But I will keep you in my prayers. God Bless you and your family and friends. And let God be with through all this.Love you always and Forever
Angelica A*K*A* your Angel
Submitted by Tanya Mcpherson from edmonton Alberta Canada
Date: Tue Jul 10 01:56:41 2001
hey A.J I'm sorry to here the disappointment. I felt mad about the postponed,but you now I feel a little better now that I'm writing this to you :) I really was looking forward to you guys coming now I have to wait longer. Well it's okay with me:) at least I'm still gonna see you guys! Yay
I can hardly wait Bye
luv ur fan Tanya
Submitted by Linnie from Los Angeles CAli. USA
Date: Tue Jul 10 01:56:39 2001
To AJ,
I was in total shock when I heard that you were in rehab. I truly hope you get better soon. And don't forget that all of us fans support you! Well be there always! Love,
Linnie
Submitted by Allison from Los Angeles California USA
Date: Tue Jul 10 01:54:51 2001
I am incredibly proud of AJ for admiting he has a problem, and getting help. I do not know if I would have had the courage, even to admit to myself that there was a problem. I am gald that he was able to tell others. I hope he recovers fully, and soon. The first I heard about it, I started crying. I hope that he feels better soon. He should know that we ALL support him, and hope he feels better soon!!
Submitted by Lala from Everett Washington USA
Date: Tue Jul 10 01:53:24 2001
Dear AJ and the rest of the guys, I know that this must be a sorrowful time for everyone in the group and I am truly sorry for the pain and grief that depression and alcohol abuse has lead you to experience. Your announcement on TRL literally amde my jaw drop and forced me to cry because I never imagined that this terrible disease would ever come in any contact whatsoever with five people that I care so much about. AJ, you are so courageous for realizing that we humans, no matter how much fame we may possess, are not impervious to life's hurdles. I am proud of you for choosing to recognize this problem and I pray that you will get better not just physically, but emotionally. You are a kind, terriffic person and you deserve all of the happiness in the world. I hope that all will be well for you and I thank you for filling your devoted fans with your beautiful soulful voice. God bless you and get better soon! Hugs and kisses forever, Lala.P.S.
Nick, sweetie, I hope that your poor hand gets better soon and that everything will be allright among you and the rest of the guys. I couldn't stand it when you and the rest of the guys could barely speak on TRL because of your tearful eyes and I hope that those eyes will never again be full of tears of sorrow, but tears of joy!
Submitted by Rebekah Jones from Winnipeg Manitoba Canada
Date: Tue Jul 10 01:52:32 2001
Hey AJ
I just want you to know that it hurts me greatly to see you hurting, I've always felt connected to you in a spiritual way, and all I wish for right now, over my own well being, is that you are okay. I have loved the group faithfully for 8 years now and I promise I will not look at you any differently now that you have been through this. If anything, you are a rolemodel for those people who do not have the courage to admit the problem. I'm very thankful that you admited this before it got to the point that one of my friends got to...suicide. I will be praying for you and your well being and I will not be the same until I know that you are recovered and I know you can do it cuz you have the wonderful support of family, friends, and millions of fans around the world! Luv ya a bunch!The guys
We can all get through this together, I mean the fans and you. The only thing we all wish for is the well being of AJ and we all know and have full faith that he can pull through this and be okay. All the fans, I know, thank you for being honost with the issue because it is better we know and can pray and wish him the best than you lying and us not knowing. Hope you can all survive this and come out on top, which I know you can do! You have helped me through a lot of tough times and so it's my turn to help you, so I'll be praying for AJ's well being and we'll see you back at full speed soon! Fellow fans,
We all know that AJ and the guys can pull through this and the only thing we can really do is pray and support them in every way possible...the way we all have in past tough situations. Don't turn your back on them or AJ and think of them differently because at least AJ had the heart to admit it and the guys were able to tell us honestly, so we gotta be there for them! KTBSPA!!! Rebekah
Submitted by Maria from USA
Date: Tue Jul 10 01:52:02 2001
I know its long and i hope aj reads this but this is my ketter to aj 2 people now of this my parents don't even know:Dear Aj, I know right now that your probably sick of hearing and seeing yourself on the news right now and hearing criticism (which you won't get from me). Aj, I admire you so much for doing this. For being able to realize you have a problem, for being able to admit it to yourself and the whole world!! You didn't have to tell everyone but you did and I'm proud of you! Also for being able to go and get help, its amazing what you are doing. Many people live their lives depressed and don't say a word or when people confront them they deny it and never admit it. They become unhappy and when they realize that they can't take it they don't go for help they try to end the life they never lived. I know its hard for you because I too went through this except I never reached out for help and I'm so happy that you have family and friends to help you through this, I didn't I kept this to myself and still to myself from this day except for one or 2 people who are close friends my family and other friends have no idea and let me tell you its so hard to do it alone and that's why I'm so honored to call my self YOUR fan! You are able to take control of this admit it and get better, you had/have the guts and I know that you will get better do not give in to the depression fight it, it may be hard buts its harder on your own, believe me. Your music was there fro me when I need it and I know that sound weird very weird lol but it is what it is! Like I said before I'm proud and honored and i admire you so much for this because if you kept it in much longer you may have Been in the spot I was and i can barely even say it that why its so much better to type it lol (lil joke maybe to get ya a lil smile) When i talk about what i mite have done I turn my feelings off so i don't cry i hate to cry infront ofpeople. I almost committed Suicide, Wow I never really told anyone but that's why I'm so glad you are getting help cause if ut gets bad enough as me you might of come to that point like me And I don't want that for you!!! I had been through shit
2 or 3 months prior of my attempt to well.. you know kill myself i had gotten into a fight with girls who i thought were my friends but they were backstabbing bitched who made fun of me and when i left there lil click they started rumors about me getting liposuction and shit like that plus i had so much shit going down at home which i dare not tell you. I was hysterical in my basement crying, the alanis morrsette song Mary-Jane was one it had caused my feelings to resurface to feelings of being no-good and inferior to others of not being cared or loved by people i should i Thought i was dog shit and i just couldn't take it anymore and this calmness came over to me and i grabbed a razor ready to cut myself and bleed to death i was about too but a song then came on that night (request hour) and it made me realize that someone will always love you and care for you whether it be family friends a boyfriend or a girlfriend or in my case God i looked to him i just pray a lot but its something. Im not saying the song magically made life better and i saw it a whole new way cause if that was the case everyone would be happy and lets face it life isn't like that. But the song did make me realize that one day there would be light and I would be happy and that it would take time but pushing my feelings and emotions aside and not letting any one in would not help me. So I took/take things one day at a time and just be me but also I had/have to find out who me is I have a long time to do that considering my age. But that song was "The one" by yes you The Backstreet Boys. You and they guys were there for me through your music and I just want you to know that I'm here for you. I support you, I admire you more then ever and Iam honored to call myself your fan because I know if I can get better and still am you can too and you are taking major steps you are admitting it and getting help you have the guts I didn't have then and you will hopefully not be in the same situation I was in. My concert is one that was postponed and I want you to know I don't give a shit all that matter right now is NOT the Backstreet BoYS, NOT A.j Mclean the Backstreet Boy but what no the PERSON WHO matters the most is
ALEXZANDER JAMES McLEAN!! YOU THE PERSON WHO YOU ARE IS WHAT/
(well who) MATTERS. You take you time and get better thats all that matters you.. get better for yourself!!! Get better because you can and get better because YOU want to!!! The bottem line is do it for you. i KNOW YOU CAN DO IT AND YOU WILL BE FINE IN THE END!!!
Aj I love you, I admire you for this you are an amazing person and u deserve your happiness so get it and get better !!! You are in my prayers and thoughts! Love Always you number one supporter fan and FRIEND
~Maria~
Ps if you ever need to talk or want to talk to me (i doubt you will but i just want you to know my door is open) my E-mail addy is Rosebud3296@aol.com
Submitted by Jessica from Denver CO USA
Date: Tue Jul 10 01:51:36 2001
AJ, we love you and the other boys so much!!! We just want you to get better, Baby!! My love, prayers and support are behind you, the boys, and the rest of your loved ones 100%. We'll wait as long as it takes!! We just want you to get better!Love Always, Jessica
Submitted by ANGIE from INDIANA USA
Date: Tue Jul 10 01:50:11 2001
HEY A.J., BUDDY,... I KNOW THAT YOU WILL BEAT THIS DEPRESSION AND ADDICTION! YOU ARE IN MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS, ALWAYS. AS FOR KEVIN, NICK, BRIAN AND HOWIE....YOU ARE THE BEST FRIENDS A GUY CAN HAVE! YOU ARE TRULY AND INSPIRATION TO ME AND I'M SURE TO EVERYONE ELSE. COMING TO THE AID OF A "BROTHER" IS ADMIRABLE AND THAT IS THE REASON YOUR FANS LOVE YOU ALL SOOOoooOO MUCH! YOU WILL ALL BE IN MY PRAYERS FOR A COMPLETE AND SPEEDY RECOVERY. GOD BLESS THE BACKSTREET BOYS!!!KTBSPA!!!!
PEACE,
ANG
Submitted by Gemmi from USA
Date: Tue Jul 10 01:49:34 2001
Dear AJ- It’s been a long time since I’ve written a letter. Normally it’s much easier to email someone then it is to sit down and type out a permanent reply to a situation most wish never existed. This is permanent. Forever.
I have been proud of people before: my friends, my sister, my parents. However, none of them have put their lives on the line, their careers on the line, the way you did. None of them have risked a every single moment of their lives, every single thing that they knew to be true, in an effort to get help.
None of them could admit that they do need help.
You did, and in my eyes, I will be proud of you forever. Admitting you need help is the first step in getting better. I’m not going to say something really pathetic about how everything will work out for you, because I don’t know that it will, I don’t know if it will. You have a long road ahead, and you have left an even longer road behind.
May G-D be with you.
It might not amount to much, the fact that a random stranger whom you have never met and more then likely never will meet is proud of you, but it is something. There are a million more people like me who have been seeking for someone to have the courage to admit they are wrong, who have had the courage to try to fix their mistakes. I finally found the person I want to admire.
I guess what I’m trying to say, in a rather round-a-bout fashion, is that you’re my hero. I wish I had the courage to admit that I have been wrong. I wish I had the courage to face my mistakes, and try to look at them in a better light. I wish a lot of things.
It’s 10:19 PM. In the nearly 8 hours since the announcement on TRL, I have seen over thirty website’s sprung up in honor of you. People on Live Journal - a type of journal thingie that’s online - have already posted pictures of you as their icon for the next thirty days. People care, and are proud, and well, yeah.
Keep being strong, for yourself, for others.
You truly are a role model.
Submitted by Jillian from LA USA
Date: Tue Jul 10 01:49:03 2001
Dear AJ,First and formost I want to say how sorry I am for the loss of your grandmother. Though I can not truly relate, I know that it must have been hard since you were so close to her. Second I want to let you know how proud I am, how proud we all are, that you were able to realize that you have a problem and are willing to do something about it instead of letting it become worse. I want to let you know that you are in my prayers and that I hope you are able to overcome this. We all are 100% behind you and the rest of the group. Keeping the Backstreet Pride Alive in Louisiana,
Jillian
Submitted by Angela from Delta B.C. Canada
Date: Tue Jul 10 01:47:25 2001
AJ-just to let you know the fans all support you! Take as much time as needed! Love from the fan
Submitted by Maria from Pittsburgh PA USA
Date: Tue Jul 10 01:43:45 2001
A.J. honey, I'm so sorry to hear the news. I hope that this will help you out. I don't want you to suffer. Take as much time as you need to recover. We will all pray for you and anxiously wait for your return. I hope you will feel better soon! I love you! You are in my prayers! Maria
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