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Submitted by Alesha from South Dakota USA
Date: Tue Jul 10 02:36:49 2001
Dear AJ,Hello! I do hope that you get this.My name is Alesha and i am 16 goin on 17. I understand what you are going threw. I have gone threw depression so many time in mylife already. i have been in rehab 5 times. It is a scary. i have almost comitted suicide 3 times. why because i did not like myself for who i was. i did not care for anyone in the world. when you guys came out in the US. my prayers where answered because as i listened to the music. my life changed dermaticaly.What i heard on TRL. i realized that you all are human being you have lives too. But it never came to me. where someone like you had a problem. cause i thought stars like them dont have problems well you do. And you are getting help for your problems. what ever happens to the backstreet boys. you guys will always be in my heart for ever. KTBSPA!!!!! love always,
Alesha
Submitted by QUETZALLI PEREZ from ENSENADA BAJA CALIFORNIA Mexico
Date: Tue Jul 10 02:31:41 2001
a.j.
you know we love you and we senyou all our love, and our best wishes, get well for you, for bsb, for all the girls that believe in you... youŽre an important part of our lifes, weŽll never let you down please, recieve our prayers, lord bless you ...weŽre with you, and with bsb form now and forever.....we love backstreet boys, we love you
quetza
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Submitted by Sarah from San Diego CA USA
Date: Tue Jul 10 02:29:17 2001
Dear AJ,
There is not much more I can say that everyone else hasn't covered, so here is an angel-- 0:) -- to watch over you and let you know that there are literally MILLIONS of people that care about you and are proud that you are getting the help you need. Be strong AJ, and we'll KTAJPA!
Submitted by Kamisha from Pleasantville NJ USA
Date: Tue Jul 10 02:23:33 2001
AJ
I wish u the best of luck in a speedy recovery. You're in my heart and prayers. When I first heard the news on TRL, I was so shocked that this happened becuz I had just saw u guys n concert on the 3rd! When Kevin made that announcement that u were going into the clinic, I broke down in tears. Then afterwards when they showed the clip of that unreleased track I cried even more. Through that song I could tell that you were hurting and that made me so sad. I cried for about an hour maybe more, but I want you to get better becuz u mean the world to us AJ Fans and BSB Fans. If u need a friend to talk to or learn on, I'm right here. Get well soon. I love you AJ!
Submitted by Sherry from Johnstown PA USA
Date: Tue Jul 10 02:21:33 2001
AJ,
I was in total shock when my friend called me and told me what happend.
You are in my prayers. I know how hard it is to lose someone so close. I lost
my Grandmother and Uncle in the same year six months apart. AJ your fans are
here to support you. Get better soon. Already missing you. Take care.
All my love,
SherryNick, Hope your hand gets better soon. Take Care. All my love, Sherry Guys, I was shocked to hear about AJ. Everyone is in my prayers. Take Care.
All my love,
Sherry
Submitted by Tamara from NJ USA
Date: Tue Jul 10 02:21:19 2001
AJ,
I'm so sorry to hear about everything that you have been going through. I want you to know that us fans will always stand by you no matter what. We want you to take as much time as you need to get better because no matter what we will be waiting here for you when you come back, we're not going anywhere. Stepping up and asking for help is the hardest part and we are all so proud of you.
Recently, a friend of mine from high school was killed in a car accident. She had been drinking and the person who was driving the car had been drinking. The driver lost control of the car, they hit 2 trees, and my friend was killed... she was only 19. I will never get over losing her.
I am so glad that you are getting help because I hope that you never have to experience anything like that. And knowing that your taking control, puts me at ease. You're a very strong and determined person with a big heart. We all have faith in you and we know you can overcome this. There are alot of people in this world that care about you, your family, your girlfriend, Nick, Brian, Kevin, Howie, and your fans. In my eyes, we are all one big family, so just know that we will always be standing behind you to pull you back up if you fall. Our thoughts and prayers are with you. Take care of yourself, and I mean YOURSELF... don't worry about anything else because all you need to concentrate on is getting better. Everything will be just fine. Stay strong... we love you AJ!Love always~
Tamara
Submitted by Ashley from San Jose California USA
Date: Tue Jul 10 02:21:04 2001
AJ,
You have always inspired me along with the other boys to follow my dream to become a singer. When I heard what happened to you I couldn't help but cry because it really hit home. One of my best friends is going through a really hard time because her family is having problems due to alcohol, depression, and eating disorders. I am so honored that you have decided to instill so much trust in your fans that you can tell us this very personal part of your life. I just wanted to let you know that we are behind you 100% no matter what happens. You have devoted your life to making millions of screaming fans across the nation happy, and now we are willing to return what you have given us. I understand that the spotlight can be a difficult place to be in 24/7. No matter how long you need to recover, we are willing to wait until you are healthy and happy again. There is nothing more important in this world than your health, because with out it you wouldn't be here.Wishes of love and happiness. Love, a supportive fan
Submitted by Stephanie from Miami Fl USA
Date: Tue Jul 10 02:15:35 2001
A.JI wish you the best through this difficult time in your life. I hope I could be there for you as you were always there for me when I was in pain and sorrow. Yes,I cried becuase I was sad when I found out but I mainly cried tears of happinesses because my prayers were answered and you got the strenght to get help. You are the strongest person I know and I honor and respect, defects and all. People have to understand their is no one who is perfect in this world. Although not perfect you are close to it, for you have a heart of gold and a strong soul. I will never know how bad your life style is but I will always supprt you 100% and want you to know I love you unconditionaly and so do many others. Stay strong, Get well
love alway,
the fan that will never stop loving you
Submitted by Megan from Edmonton Alberta Canada
Date: Tue Jul 10 02:15:09 2001
Dearest A.j.
Wow.. what can I say.. overhearing this news from a friend and therefore checking it out on the official site, was heartbreaking.. Just after reading the big breakdown, on all thats been influencing you, lately. Tour dates, are tour dates.. and they shall be postponed, no biggy.. But damnit, health is health.. Anything for you, A.J. to get back on your feet, healthy, safe, happy and of course, smiling (with NO rush!). You can do it A.j. and i truly believe you'll make it through this 30-day treatment, and be totally refreshed, by the time its over, you've done all rights, by first of all, just coming out and admitting to ur problem and asking for the need of help (Right there, you've made us all very proud).. Think of the thousands out there (the boys, friends, family and your fans) who love you unconditionally, and forever, will be there for you. A.J. you're in my prayers and thoughts. See you when the time comes around. But for now, please do, take care.. Best wishes and of course, God Bless you *xoxox*
Submitted by A True Fan from USA
Date: Tue Jul 10 02:13:55 2001
When I first heard of AJ's problem, a poem that I wrote a couple years ago came to mind...it's about being in a rut in life and then finding out there is in fact a light at the end of the tunnel. While I wish so so badly I could get it to AJ, I know that most likely won't work. Instead, I thought I'd share it with some of you. Sorry, it's pretty darn long, but I guess I can't really cut parts out! Here goes...There came a day
When they took my hand
And snatched me away
They told me that I could no longer continue the journey that I'd begun
And existence as I knew it woud be abolished
Then I was lowered into the depths
Where visions were distorted
And beings were unfamiliar
Ominous figures in dark cloaks pulled me farther and farther down
Grasping my arm with cold persistence
Forcing me into a deep rut, where my senses were shattered, my mind obstructed
And yet I could see my home, my origin, the roots of my life
I was tortured by its nearness, its luking presence
Like a shelf just beyond my reach, which held ornaments of value
I wanted to turn my back on it, wanted to hate it with all my might
I even pleaded to find indifference in my new world, and begged for it to leave me be, forget all about me
And yet, as far as I dug in my pockets, I could not find any mercy
No solutions, no hope, no light at the end of the tunnel
I was lost, left with only my body and mind
Deserted with only my recollections and rememberance
Alone
Only me, just me
As time dragged, its friction caused me to cry, helpless emotion slipping through my fingers
But this did not better the situation
For with every drop of innocence
I became closer and closer to drowning in my own tears
A subconcious suicide, a fatality
So I silenced my sadness
And suddenly, the rain ceased
The sun shone
The flames smoldered and burnt out
Leaving traces of ashes lurking about
And the breeze carried them away gradually
As the great star spilled its golden light
The flowers bloomed
They blossomed
And I smelled them for the first time
Experiencing the essence of their sweet fragrance
My bare feet stepped into the green grass
Idly at first, cautiously, tentatively
I sauntered across the meadow
Slowly, I started to regain my grasp, my footing
And with newfound reassurance, I broke into a run
My soul had been freed, unleashed
I removed the dispiriting shackles on my character
My eyes opened to comprehensibility, and clarity
I felt as though I must have been dreaming
Was it real?
Had I been defeated again by falsity?
I searched for the answer tumultuously
And found it
The beauty was indeed unfeigned
And I was ultimately content
It was an arduous expedition
Yet I had prevailed... I smiled.
Submitted by Lily from San Antonio Texas USA
Date: Tue Jul 10 02:11:51 2001
I just wanted to say that I really hope AJ gets better and that I think he's a great human being for recognizing his problem and seeking for help..that's always the best way....along with the rest of the Boys I want to say ya'll are ALSO great ppl...I want to say THANK YOU for coming clean to us the fans...I hope that all these little msgs from us..do the same for ya'll like YOUR music does for us....which is making us HAPPY and feeling better.....=)..hope everything turns out alright and I know AJ can do it! Peace out and best wishes*!
Submitted by Daniella Salinas from Bloomfield New Jersey USA
Date: Tue Jul 10 02:11:26 2001
AJ,
Just know that you are never alone. Not only am I and millions of other fans here for you, but also God is here for you. He's the only true love there is and the key to your happiness. I know for a fact that you will pull through with a stronger spirit. My prayers are for you. and I am always here for you....
~~ Title of poem- Always Here For You~~Wish I had a clue,
Even though my hand was always out.
I wish I knew
I would of streched it out a mile for you.
I would of given you the strength you needed.
And I am still here for you
No matter what changes in the wind
Holding on until you return
With a stronger soul within
Just wish i could of known sooner
What was clouding up your days
I would of given that extra ear to talk to
Just to shine some of heaven's rays
I do love you
and I will always care
My back wont ever turn away
I made extra room in my heart to share
So i give you my prayers
But I hold on to my cries
Cause I have faith you'll get through
I have faith you'll be alright. ~~~LOVE YOU AJ!!~~~~~
Submitted by Dena from new york USA
Date: Tue Jul 10 02:08:19 2001
i didn't cry when bsb first said that aj was going to rehab but once they showed aj singing that song i just burst into tears. the way he looked and the lyrics to the song just made me feel bad as if i was the cause of his pain. and did you guys see kevin in the background? he looked so concerned as if he knew there was something wrong. aj i hope you are getting better in rehab. i care so much for you and knowing that you're hurt makes me hurt. get well soon aj, we love you!
Submitted by LeeAnn from Avon IN USA
Date: Tue Jul 10 02:06:32 2001
A.J.-First of all, I'm sure you have seen on the other 85 (so far) pages of this board that you have millinos of fans that are supporting you and hope for the best of your well-being. I, obviously, am one of these fans. I know that what you, your family and the other guys are going through is one of the worst things that anyone should have to deal with and I wish that on no one, ever. I know this because over the past year the same thing happened to one of my best friends. The only difference is that she never told us that she had a problem, and she was checked into the hospital by her parents who didn't let any of us in on where she was for the entire 2 weeks she was there. Though her stay in the hospital did help to get her going on the right track...those 2 weeks were the most nervewracking 2 weeks of my life. So props go out to you and the boys for letting the fans in on something that is definately a very personal matter. Whatever happens, hang in there. I along with millions of other fans and supporters will definately keep you in our prayers until you are better. May God be with you. LeeAnn Mnichowski
Submitted by Christina from Cerritos CA USA
Date: Tue Jul 10 02:06:24 2001
I may not know or understand what you are going through but I would like you to know that I will be your #1 supporter. You have always been there for so many people including myself. I want to pass on to you something that someone has told me. You exist for a reason, and each day is an opportunity to express the gift you are to this world. Don't make no apologies in believing that you are a gift to this world. Society is full of despair because not enough people believe they are a beautiful creation worthy of being called a "gift to the world." The nation would not be as it is today if every person awoke each morning believing, "I am a gift to the people I meet today. I am created to love and be loved on earth and in heaven." So just tell yourself that you are a gift to the people you meet each day. You are created to love and be loved on earth and in heaven and you will get through it.
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