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Submitted by Edna Micu from Novato California USA
Date: Tue Jul 10 04:23:03 2001
AJ,
When I heard the news tears started to flow. I new that you had been battleing with depression,but never knew that you had a drinking problem. I never expected to hear that kind of news. But it made me realize even more how human you and the guys are. That you face different problems as we do. You have taken the hardest step out of this...admiting that you have problem and you need help. After that everything should be easy. I don't know what else to say but that you have gain more respects from me than ever before. It takes a lot of guts to admit a problem. My prayers are with you,to your family, and to the rest of the guys. We,as fans, are with you 120%! We love you and we wish you good luck!
Loving Aj always!
KBSBPA
Submitted by THANK HEAVEN FOR AJ fka th4kevin from USA
Date: Tue Jul 10 04:17:57 2001
Everyone needs to vote for TRL!!!!!
THEY ARE GOING TO BE #1 EVERY FRUCKING DAY AJ IS IN REHAB!!!!!
DO IT FOR AJ MCLEAN AND VOTE YOUR HEART OUT!!!
We are the BSB fans, and we have to get them to #1!
Vote for MORE THAN THAT for aj now!!!!!!VOTE FOR MORE THAN THAT FOR AJ ON TRL NOW!!!!!
mtv.com!!!!
VOTE FOR MORE THAN THAT FOR AJ ON TRL NOW!!!!!
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VOTE FOR MORE THAN THAT FOR AJ ON TRL NOW!!!!!
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VOTE FOR MORE THAN THAT FOR AJ ON TRL NOW!!!!!
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VOTE FOR MORE THAN THAT FOR AJ ON TRL NOW!!!!!
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VOTE FOR MORE THAN THAT FOR AJ ON TRL NOW!!!!!
mtv.com!!!! Also, vote for " I want to be happy" by AJ McLean in the "other" box. If we request his song enough, then they'll play it!!!!! We need to see it!!!!! DO IT FOR AJ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I KNOW HOW MUCH YOU GUYS CARE FOR HIM, SO VOTE FOR HIM!!!! Also,
vote at seventeen.com in the TCA for BSB
Vote at teenpeople.com for Kevin
VOTE AT MTV.COM AS BSB FOR VIEWERS CHOICE Nominees!! vote your heart out FOR TRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AJ AJ AJ AJ AJ AJ AJ AJ AJ AJ AJ AJ AJ AJ AJ DO IT FOR AJ!!!!!!!!
Submitted by Tiffany from Portland OR USA
Date: Tue Jul 10 04:16:48 2001
I just want AJ to know that all of the fans are supporting him 100%! We totally understand him and why they have to postpone the tour. We luv him to death and we will always back him up 100%! I just want him to know that he's SO brave to not lie boutz it, have the group go on live TV, and say it to everyone in the world! Its just so inspiring! His song that he started to write is VERY inspiring, I luv it! I hope it becomes published someday! :D I luv BSB and I'm supporting them 100%! ~*Get well, AJ!!*~
Submitted by Lisa Scudiero from Ormond Beach Florida USA
Date: Tue Jul 10 04:12:09 2001
A.J., although you may never read this, or even be told about this, I will be satisfied in simply adding another number to this great list of millions of supportive and concerned fans. I also don't know what has caused you your pain and illness, but personally speaking, I know it only takes a strong heart and focused mind to attain peace and stability. Over a year and a half ago I was checked into a hospital for major depression and suicide attempt. I even missed the Dec. 1st Orlando concert in 2000 because of it (however, I HAVE seen 5 other shows....) But what I'm getting at, I guess, is that I didn't have the strength to ask for help, to admit that I really needed it, instead I caused a great deal of pain unto the people around me, and to myself. I was fortunate enough to have the people who love me recognize the fact that I did need help. And they got me it. But I DIDNT. Granted, I am better, and have been ever since, but it still pains me to know that I, personally, didn't have the courage to help myself. But YOU DID. And never could you ever fully know how much I truly admire you for that. I wish you the best of luck, and may you continue to be a tremendous influence on all of your fans.
Submitted by HOlli from PR Florida USA
Date: Tue Jul 10 04:10:42 2001
Me and a good friend of mine want to make 2 separate books. one for the boys and one for AJ. We want to show our support and we want to have others do the same.We ask that your letters are no more than one page, and of your support for him or/and the boys, and that your careful with your choice of words. You can send the letters to the boys and AJ for the fan books by e-mailing either one of us with the subby "AJ fan book" or "Boys fan book". Along with this you can send us pics of You, With AJ, or AJ himself for the AJ book only. for the BSB one to all the guys were accepting pictures of You, With the boys, or Of the boys through snail mail only! We need this by the 16th the latest. If you want to help send your letters to the following addy's:
EeYoReBaBe05@aol.com or KK345@aol.comif you want anymore information on where to send the pictures or anything else, email us at the addresses above. Thank you in advance,
Holli and Kristen P.S we will be giving these to Howie's Mom and Howie himself. we're going to be taken pictures of them reciving the books and sending them to everyone that donates so everyone knows the books got to Howie.also if you have presents for the guys those are acceptive too. thanks and we hope to hear from you.
Submitted by THANK HEAVEN FOR AJ fka thfk from AJ USA
Date: Tue Jul 10 04:09:42 2001
*~About 6pm....July 9th ~*
I came home from my country club and everyone already knew except for me. My mom was going to wait to tell me until dinner. Then my friend's mom called to tell us. I only heard one side of the conversation from my friend Elizabeth. She was like, WHAT HAPPENED! TELL ME! IS HE OKAY? I DON'T GET IT! A BACKSTREET BOY? Amber, turn on the news! It was so scary. I didn't know what happened. Then she told me.
I have never felt anything hit me like that before. I just fell to the ground crying. I never stopped for hours and hours and hours. All through dinner at the restaurant. I couldn't eat. I was sad because i was seeing them in 12 DAYS, I thought no one would like AJ anymore, and OF COURSE....mostly...I was scared to think what would happen to AJ. I thought I wasn't going to see them at all! It was such an awful feeling. just cried and cried.... I called my friend Lindsay, i needed to tell her before I left for dinner, and I couldn't even talk. I just said THE TOUR IS CANCLED!! WE ARENT SEEING BSB! AJ IS IN REHAB!!!!! FOR ALCOHOL! :-(as mixed emotions continued *~About 10pm.... ~*
I came online and my friend Ashley IMed me and she said SEPTEMBER 22ND! I have never flipped out so much!! THEY HAD RESCHEDULED THE DATES!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOLY SHIT, I STARTED CRYING SOO HARD AGAIN RIGHT AFTER MY TEARS HAD DIED DOWN! But these were happy tears!! I was just sooooo sooo happy that I was going to see them! I ran around the house and just went nuts! I started acting like a fish, just like I did when I watched BSB on Spring Break Memories. Nevermind, but I just went crazy. I know that Im going to see them on Aug 24, but my other concert was 12 dyas away, and this was 6th row, and this was a 2nd time to see them!!! And plus, I didn't even think I was going to see them on Aug 24! I didn't know what to think. Now I am happy that I will see them on Aug 24, and now September 22nd. That's a saturday and that's better so I can leave friday, stalk them all day, and then stay over night again!
To add to the great news of rescheduling, what matters most is that I read allll these wonderful things of everyone supporting him! I thought everyone would hate BSb and hate AJ, but they don't!!!!!!! EVERYONE STILL LOVES THEM AND THEY ARE SUPPORTING HIM 100 PERCENT! It makes me sooo happy! Every fan I have talked to is soooo praying for him reaching out to him! Even people who are not fans, think it was soo awesome of BSB and AJ to admit to such a thing, and had soo much guts to admit it. That cheered me up more than you would know. I was HAPPY. I just started saying AJ CAN DO IT!! IT IS GOING TO ALRIGHT!! EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE FINE! *~About 12am.... ~*
I watched TRL at mtv.com. Did you see them? Did you see the way Kevin started to cry! I CAN TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!! I AM SOOOO SCARED!!!!!!!! I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO!!! IS HE GOING TO BE ALRIGHT, OR NOT?? And his song...I can't stop listening to it. I just can't beleive what is coming out of his mouth. It's so sad. I am DEPRESSED!!!! I want to just die!!!!! I have never been soo sad!!!!!! I was so happy before, now...... :*( *~2:02am~*
As I sit here, writing this, all I can think about is AJ. The man we know as Bone. Most of the BSBfans I was talking to got offline, and I am listening to "Aj's song" I am on the phone wih my friend Lindsay. We aren't going to get off. We need to talk about AJ! She is figuring out the lyrics to his song. I am wearing my AJ pin for the next 30 days and I am going to PRAY UNTIL MY PRAYERS ARE NO MORE!!!!! I KNOW AJ IS GOING TO TRY HIS HARDEST CUZ HE KNOWS THERE ARE SO MANY PEOPLE WHO LOVE HIM!!! He'll do it for the fans, and for himself. He loves his career too much to let it slip away over alcohol. He is going to TRY AND TRY. Like he said, "He won't stop trying" Aj and BSB are going to get through this, but he needs us too. Everyone needs to send him cards and love to show him we are here for him!!! *~Stuff on my mind ~*
I know this was partly because of Aj's grandma's death. But I know there's more! What was the other part? Was it Amanda, or some other girl maybe? Here are the lyrics lindsay figured out::::
*AJ'S SONG*
I'm trying to find myself within me
and I need some time to find true love
If I don't then i wont stop trying
If I can't, then I won't be lying
What you need, i really want
I want to be healthy
I need to be helped I write in yellow for AJ now Lindsay and I made a screename for AJ::: AmbNLinzRHere4Aj I am going to make a tape that has any and everything AJ has every sang before in any BSB song I have. A total AJ mix... At my concert in 46 days, I am going to make a sign that says AJ, I WAS THERE FOR YOU THE WHOLE WAY or something to that affect. I was thinking about this....His dog is named Jack Daniels....that's kinda weird, ya know? :-( I thought it was sexy if any BSB got drunk or had alcohol. It was just sexy to me, but now...this is more serious, and It's soo scary. I wasn't really "around" when Brian's heart surgery was announced and happened. Could anyone tell me if this is more or less serious than that? Are people more scared? I wasn't a really big fan then. I don't even think I knew about it. I was young then, and didn't keep up with music or anything. I wonder how that compares to this. It's pretty similiar.... *~AJ ~*
I know he can do it. I wonder what's going to happen when he is out?? He'll be changed, but I hope not completely. Think about how weird it is going to be for him going back on stage again with all those people knowing about "it." I hope he is hisself again. I hope 30 days is enough. BSB can't continue without him. At first I was like 'I am not going to see them in concert" althought I always cared about what was going to happen to him, but now....
I don't care if I don't see them. He just needs to get better. I don't care if I don't see them Aug 24 or Sep 22nd.....AJ, I WANT YOU TO BE OKAY!!!!! I LOVE AJ SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!! I LOVE HIM AND BSB MORE THAN EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THEY ARE THE GREATEST PEOPLE ALIVE!!!!!!!! They went on TV and told the world AJ had a problem. Aj had the guts to admit it, and he is amazing!! AJ IS AMAZING!! I am soo glad he wants to get helped. I know he wanted to for everyone!!!! I cannot wait to see what happens in 30 days. VOTE FOR TRL MORE THAN YOU EVER HAVE!!!!!!! THEY ARE GOING TO BE #1 EVERY FRUCKING DAY HE IS IN REHABILITATION!!!!!!! Pray For AJ.
Keep the AJ pride Alive!!!!
AJ can do it...... **I'm not going to bed tonight. I am listening to BSB ALLLLL NIGHT and not stop!!!! I LOVE AJ TOO MUCH TO SLEEP!!!!!!!!!! I cannot wait to see the TRL repeat tommorow...at 7am! Now...i have to go make my AJ tape and listen to BSB.** :-( AJ doesn't deserve this......
I am so sad....
I love AJ more than my life.
Submitted by Nichelle Chin from Las Vegas Nevada USA
Date: Tue Jul 10 04:08:47 2001
Dear AJ,When I first heard of what was going on, I was very intrigued at what was happening. I just sat there watching the TV screen, praying already that you would get well. Saddened already, I watched you sing that song. And by then, I was in tears. I truly hope the best for you, and I am also very sad for you about losing you grandmother, I know how it feels, eventually as time goes by, it gets better. I will always be a fan with whatever happens in all of your lives. You will be in my thoughts. A true fan,
~Ni~
Nichelle
Submitted by Vanessa Perry from Puyallup Washington USA
Date: Tue Jul 10 04:05:53 2001
Dear A.J.,
Hi, this is Vanessa Perry. Today when I heard about your illness, I really didn't know what to think. It wasn't bad things. I really started to cry very hard. My father asked me why. The thing is that even though I don't know you, but it's kind like of your my brother. ( I know that's very different! ) I sat in my room crying for about an hour.
I started to think hard about your situation. Just to let you know, My mother ( who is now living in Seattle ) had a very bad drug problem and even stole my money to get it. Then I learn that it is more of an illness than an addiction.
I would also like to add that my prayers go out to the rest of the guys also. I can only imagine what they are going through as well. All of my friends really respected what they did, coming out on MTV and telling the fans. I also respect how you came out to say that you had a problem. That takes a lot of guts. Thank you for not lieing to us about it.
On a final note, I hope that you get better soon. Please don't rush the treatment just get back on the road. What's more important know is that you get better. I sure that the other fans will agree and will be supportive as well.
Your fan 4 ever,
Vanessa
P.S.- I tried to put a rose on and a heart in the letter, but the letter wouldn't go through then.I also love your " body art work " Luv Ya!
Submitted by Sara from Upstate NY USA
Date: Tue Jul 10 03:58:40 2001
Dear AJ,
I hardly could believe the news when I got an email from a friend telling me what happened to you. But I think you are strong and brave and most of all curagious and you'll over come all this and live a happier life. As a fan I can only say that I've been through one aspect of what you're going through, not the drinking part but the depression, its a long road full of ups and downs and day to day you just gotta hang in there and make each day the happiest of your life. Your an incredible person you love your fans and we love you, plus you have 4 people who really love you, Nick, Brian, Kevin and Howie. You also have your family and close friends. We pray for your safe much needed recovery.
I wish you the best!
Love Your Fan Always,
Sara
Submitted by Amber from Vancouver BC Canada
Date: Tue Jul 10 03:58:30 2001
'All I have to give' right now is my love and hold you in my heart. You're a shinning star AJ, always have and always will be. You've over come so much as it is and I know you will over come this. Know that there are millions of people out there holding you in our thoughts, take your time and if you're ready I'll be waiting with open arms in Vancouver for your return to the stage. Your health is much more important to everyone, please remember that. I am so very glad you were all honest with us!
This was your biggest step AJ.....I BELIEVE IN YOU FOREVER AND ETERNITY!I will love you more than that: Always Amber
Submitted by Ada from Louisville KY USA
Date: Tue Jul 10 03:58:27 2001
Hey AJ, when I heard the news today I was kind of shocked and sad, but I am just glad that you are getting help for the problems. Everyone cannot be perfect in life, we all have problems and I have the deepest faith in you that you will pull thorough and be alright. We, the fans, all love and support you and we know that you have do it!!!! Good luck...
Submitted by Caitlin from Whitman Massachusetts USA
Date: Tue Jul 10 03:54:24 2001
aj -- i know sometimes in life we run off the road of what makes us happy, but you will get back on. the thing is, in your life style, you are always trying to please fans and other people. well you need to start thinking about pleasing you. do what makes you happy and that's how life will be a gift to be unwrapped everyday. for now, you are in my prayers and in my heart. xoxo, caitlin
Submitted by Mandy Stroud from EXETER N/A United Kingdom
Date: Tue Jul 10 03:50:34 2001
Hi AJ, I'm from the UK and me and all the fans down here wish you all the best, I wanted to say how proud I am of you, you have been so brave to admit you have a problem and dealing with it. I hope you get better soon and wish you all the luck for the future. To Kevin, Nick, Brian and Howie, this must be so hard on you and I want to say that I support you guys so much, you mean the World to me and I know your strong enough to get through this. I feel so helpless over here and wish there were more I could do, I felt so upset when I found out, I couldn't think straight but now I'm coming to terms with it and hope you'll all be o.k, you guys have been through a lot in your lifes and it makes me think, there's nothing they can't do, they are so strong and I know you'll pull through this fine! Please AJ, get well soon, take all the time you need, I don't want to see you worry about disappointing fans by cancelling the tour but that's nothing, the tour can wait your health can't, don't come back until you feel ready, we'll still be here and we ain't going anywhere!
I hope your hand gets better soon as well Nick!
KTBSPA!
Submitted by Kay Baker from indianapolis indiana USA
Date: Tue Jul 10 03:47:04 2001
Aj, just know that you have already completed the hardest step into rehab... admitting to yourself you have a problem. the rest will be smooth sailing. i know that everyone will pray for you and you will get through just fine. Thank God that you admitted it early, before it would be hard to realize the fact. You know you can always count on your fans and the other fellas and your family to help you. And, at least look on the bright side, in the future the backstreet boys will be qualified to have their own "Behind The Music". all joking aside, i, along with the rest of my friends and family, wish you the best of luck, and we all know you'll get thru it, you'll have all your fans and friends and family there in spirit. God Bless You
Submitted by JACKIE from STATEN ISLAND NEW YORK USA
Date: Tue Jul 10 03:43:07 2001
AJ...
DONT WORRY ABOUT PROSTPONNING THE TOUR YOU JUST NEED TO RELAX AND DO WHAT YOU NEED TO DO... YOUR FANS ARE BEHIND YOU A 100% IN NO MATTER WHAT YOUR DECISION IS...I GIVE U A LOT OF CREDIT FOR REALIZING THAT YOU ARE HAVING A PROBLEM. YOUR FANS LOVE YOU AND SUPPORT YOU THROUGH EVERYTHING... YOU A VERY STORNG AND CORGEOUS INDIVIDUAL AND ITZ HARD NOW BUT THE HARD PART IS OVER YOU KNOW U HAD A PROBLEM AND YOU WENT FOR HELP... THATS THE MAN IN YOU... I WISH YOU ALL THE LUCK AND BEST WISHES IN EVERYTHING... IF N E ONE WOULD LIKE TO EMAIL ME AT XOLILHUNI29XO@AOL.COM WE CAN POSSIBLY TALK ABOUT ANYTHING FROM ONE BACKSTREET FAN TO ANOTHER..KTBSPA
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