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Submitted by Vanessa from Cologne NRW Germany
Date: Wed Jul 11 06:30:27 2001
AJ,
I will be encouraging youevery day. Don't ever give up. All of us true fans stand behind you and support you. You know, maybe this doesn't help, but I'm gonna write it anyways. There's a hero
if you look inside your heart
you don't have to be afraid
of what you are
there's an answer
if you reach within your soul
and the sorrow that you knows
will melt away and when a hero comes along
with the strenght to carry on
and you cast your fears inside
and you know you can survive
so when you feel like hope is gone
look inside you and be strong
and you'll finally see the truth
that a hero lies in you. Alex, you're a hero, because you had the strenght
to admit that you need help.
Don't ever give up, because without you, the Backstreet Boys wouldn't be the same. All my love and support God bless you Vanessa from Germany
Submitted by Kathy from Dedensen Near Hannover Germany
Date: Wed Jul 11 06:22:23 2001
Dear Alex,
Iam here for you every day every hour every minute every second. I pray for you all the long day. And I pray also for the other 4 guys Howie Kev Nick and Brian and also for ur family and ur lovely dogs.
Alex I miss u soo soo much and I love u soo soo much. I love u more than my own life . You are my big Love. I hope you are feel better soon.I cry all the time.
I wish u hugs and many many kisses.
I love you Alex
Bye your biggest fan Kathy ( 19 on the 17th of july , from Dedensen near Hannover , Germany )
Submitted by Carolina, Andreia and Bianca from Patrocínio Minas Gerais Brazil
Date: Wed Jul 11 06:21:45 2001
Psalm 61, 1-3
"Hear my cry, O GOD; attend unto my prayer. From the end of the Earth will I cry unto Thee, when my heart is overwhelmed: lead me to the rock that is higher than I. For Thou hast been a shelter for me, and a strong tower from the enemy."
Dear A. J.,
Believe in GOD. It's the only thing that you need right now. We are so proud of your courage to show to the world that you needed help. Be strong, confident and courageous like you always be. Put your trusts in Jesus, and don't let the true Alexander James die. You must look around you and see how many people who loves you: you have a wonderful mother, four brothers who cares about you, millions of fans all over the planet supporting you and praying for your rehabilitation and a Lord and Savior who loves you more than everybody, JESUS.
You are the most incredible, awesome and original person that we ever Know. Keep this gifts alives!
We are praying for you everyday and don´t forget that we'll be there for you 'til the end.God bless you and we hope see you well and singing soon. Take care and Get well!!! Luv, Carolina, Andreia and Bianca
Brazil
Submitted by Zeliha from Antalya Turkey
Date: Wed Jul 11 06:17:51 2001
Dear Aj
Deciding that you need help is the hardest part, and you're being incredibly brave admitting you have a problem.
All the Turkish fans are praying so much for you and we're proud of you !!
Aj,our hearts and prayers will always be with you.
Hope you get well soon !!
MAY GOD BLESS YOU AND KEEP YOU STRONG ~ Zeliha ~
Submitted by Sammy from Mississauga Ontario Canada
Date: Wed Jul 11 06:14:15 2001
A.J. You have shown us the "true shape of your heart". It takes a lot of courage to admit your mistakes and now you are on the first step to recovery.
For all the love and generosity that you have shown to fans throughout the years, please know that is returned to you a million times over. To Kevin, Nick, Howie and Brian - your love and support for A.J. will see him through and make all of you that much stronger. For your honesty over the past few days - your fans thank you and will continue to stand by you. God Bless A.J. and get well soon - Canada loves you and can't wait to see you up here in September! Sammy
Submitted by Eun-Young from Japan
Date: Wed Jul 11 06:13:53 2001
to.AJDon't Cry.AJ.
Cause We Will Be There for YOU! Always...
Cheer Up.
Cause you're strong then anybody!
your grandma is always next to you.
whole world is in big tragic coz you.
please!
cheer up! WE HOPE YOU WILL BACK WITH HAPPY FACE!
WE WILL LOVE ALEXANDER JAMES McLEAN 4EVER. GOD BLESS. 2001.7.11 from.Your fan Eun-Young in South Korea
Submitted by Kha'Tara Steen from Reseda California USA
Date: Wed Jul 11 06:08:48 2001
Hi A.J., my name is Kha'Tara and I am writing to let you know how you have helped me so much in my life. I am not just a fan I feel like I am your friend. Throughout the years I have been through a lot in my life and at times I did not know how I could go on. Dealing with my parents divorce and the death of my grandfather I had nothing to live for, or I thought I didn't. One day I was watching t.v. in my moms room and I passed by MTV. Your video "Quit playing games with my heart", was playing and something made me stop and watch. For that one moment, life was good and all my problems faded. Finding out more about the BSB helped me cope with all the things bad that had happened in my life. Brians strict faith in God helped me get on my knees and pray and that my not seem like a big thing but, when you pour out all your problems to God, you know he is there listening and you can feel your pain going away, all the bad things in life that you went trough lifting and letting you see all of the good. Dealing with my grandfathers death was really hard because he was like a father to me, someone I could always run to when I needed help, someone who had a shoulder I could cry on and someone that made my life a better place to live in. He died of a heart attack, so sudden. He was there one minute and gone the next. I fell in depression because, I thought of all the things I should have done and should have said when he was alive and I didn't. Then I was angry because, I was not there and I resented my friends and all the things that kept me away from him. I felt I needed someone to blame and someone to hurt because, I wanted them to feel my pain because, I missed him and knew he was never coming back. Listening to your music and the positive note it gave to me helped me slowly ease my pain.I realize that he lived a great life and he accomplished all the things he wanted to do, that he is in a better place were his pain is gone and I knew if he knew that I was here sad and he was the cause of the pain that he wouldn't be happy and I had to say good-bye so that he could move on and I could move on with my life. People aways ask me why I like BSB and I tell them because, they make me feel happy.I am not saying it is easy to get over a loved one or deal with the problems you deal with in your life from your childhood up but, don't let the negative control you and don't let it bring you down were it hurts so much that you can't think or react to certain things straight.You have so much to live for and you have so much more to accomplish in life. I wanted to do something so that I could remember my grandfather and I started to volunteer at a hospital so I could make a difference. Use your heart to decide what is right for you and let your friends help you the way you have helped so many people. :) Smile because, one day the sun will shine brighter than ever and it my not be the easiest thing to go through but, know you always have someone here if you need someone. I know you will do just fine because, you are a good person and you are strong. Get well soon and take care of yourself. I wish you only the best in life and now that you have dealt with the problem you can start living again. "It takes a big man to knock a man down but, it takes a bigger man to get back up" Micheal Jordan. Your Friend Kha'Tara
Submitted by Filipa from Coimbra Portugal
Date: Wed Jul 11 06:07:22 2001
A.J I wish you the best!All the Portuguese Fans are praying for you!We love you!
Submitted by boryana from vratza bulgaria Bulgaria
Date: Wed Jul 11 06:04:41 2001
HI,SWEETY!
I' m really really shok.'I'M SO PROUD OF YOU'as
brian said.I can't belive that the life is so bad for you but it is...OH,MY GOD TELL ME JUST WHAT CAN I DO TO BRING BACK AJ's BEAUTIFUL SMILE.I'm in depresiv too (2 years ago)but i don't give up just because of you.YOU BACKSTREET ARE MY LIFE YOU are my tears YOU make me smile and make me cry.And now i cry too with YOU.ONLY IF I CAN DO SOMTHING...GOD TAKE MY LIFE AND DO WHAT YOU WANT BUT LET AJ LIVE AS HE CAN-HAPPY OF COURS.My life is aposolutly crush and it can't be another i live to die and i'm waitin'this moment.just because of my UNhappy life i want YOU MY FAV.PEOPLE TO LIVE HAPPY. SO that is all i have to say for now.
I LOVE YOU BACKSTREEET BOYS.
DON'T GIVE UP NO MATTER WHAT.
LISTEN TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!
GO AJ I'M SHURE THAT U WILL BE WELL SOOOOO SOON.
KISS YOU BABY.:-*
MY E-MAIL IS BB_RHCP@YAHOO.COM
Submitted by Gaelle & Anne-Lise from Lons-le-Saunier France
Date: Wed Jul 11 05:59:33 2001
Dear Aj
we heard about your troubles today, and we just want to tell you one thing : WE LOVE YOU AND PRAY FOR YOUR GOOD RECOVERY...just take care of yourself and don't hesitate to lean on your great family and friends... Guys (BSB), take care of our funky AJ and come back soon healthy in France.All of your true fans are waiting for you !
We send you all our strengths...and LOVE.
From Gaelle & Anne-Lise and every french fan...
Submitted by Bambi Starlight from Malaysia
Date: Wed Jul 11 05:56:42 2001
Bravery is when u admit to your mistakes. And what you did took extreme bravery. My prayers are with you and so are all the fans'. We love you AJ and we want nothing but the best for you. You'll make it through this and the love of the Backstreet Boys and the Backstreet fans will guide you. Keep being strong, for that is all that's important.
Submitted by britt from orange county USA
Date: Wed Jul 11 05:51:49 2001
* this is to a.j., his family, the rest of bsb, and anyone else who can relate to the harsh realities of life *
"To be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing it's best,night and day,to make you everybody else means to fight the hardest battle any human being can fight; and never stop fighting." -ee cummings
Someone once said "the greatest thing in the world is not so much where we are, but in what direction we are moving in." I feel this quote can pretty much sum up my life, and quite possibly what a.j. is going thru right now.
When i heard the news on mtv, and saw the bsb crew, and how truly devatated they were, it reminded me of myself. At the age of 15, i have said goodbye permanently to 5 people in my life, i've spent a few years in medical testing and one hell of a year dealing w/ life. At my school, i am in the minority- not only just for the reasons you can visually see- but also because of the soap opera lifestyle God has given to me.
I can relate to a.j. because i lost both of my grandmothers in less than a year-8th grade,and i've seen and felt the reality of not having the people i love on earth with me. I can't even begin to describe all the emotions i felt that year, or all the times i questioned life,faith,people, and myself in general. There's also the factor of going to school, and taking gate and ap (college credit) classes, not to mention playing 3 sports a year, being in one the busiest asb's in california ( we have state-recognition as proof), working, doing community service, mock trial, the academic decathalon, dealing with family issues that would put ANY soap opera to shame (honestly), coming home to an empty house, doing ( at the minimum) 5 hours of homework a nite ( and that's on a normal night) =), AND going to neurologists, doctors who can't figure out what's wrong with you, cardiologists, giving blood soo many times i've lost count (somewhere between 40-50 times from jan 01-june 01), taking mri scans, visiting the er room (not by choice might i add), and then trying to deal with the "normal" issues that my friends and other teens go thru! AND THAT'S ALL IN ONE YEAR!!!!i'm not even done w/ high skool yet!argh! ( i'm SO going to right "tell all" book about my life!)=)=)
Anyways, this is the 1st time i've actually responded to this website (even though i've been here a 1000 times),and i'm hoping (like so many others), that a.j., or someone in general, will read this and learn something from me.
I've lived one hell of a life thus far,given the stuff i've mentioned and especially the things i don't mention.(and i can't even play lotto or vote!argh!!) But now that it's summer (and i can get more than 3 hours of sleep a nite! yay!),i've had the time to reflect on the [past] year. The thing i admit the most to my friends when they ask me about my life, is that I wouldn't change anything about it for the world. I'm not trying to get religous on anyone or pass judgement on anyone's life by any means, but i'm actually thankful all that God has allowed me to go thru in life b/c it's shaped the person i am today. i'm thankful for the horrible "childhood" i had, b/c one day when i have children, i'll know exactly how to treat them and love them and be a good parent.i'm gr6ful for the people i've been exposed to; both good and bad; b/c they've shown me what i do and what i don't wanna be as a person. I'm gr8ful for all the medical scares and testing i did, cuz it made me appreciate life more than anything. As a result of the life God has given me, i have a perspective on life that many my age (around me& at my skool), probably won't experience until years and years have passed. i've seen and experienced things that no one deserves to see or go thru and b/c of those things, i realize how to treat people and i have motvation to choose the paths that are often least taken by my peers.
*if you aren't asleep by now, then let me try and finish this up quickly* =)
(if a.j. should read this,and especially if anyone else going thru a hard time shuold read this) I've learned that life isn't about being perfect, it's about the journey and motions of experiencing life. Life is about choosing right and wrong, good or bad. Everyone has problems (some more than others), but we're human and we make mistakes: the important thing is to learn from them. i hope a.j. can learn from all the experiences in his life- and i'm glad he has the time to sit and reflect like me. looking back on my short life,thus far, i've dealt w/ everything that a.j.'s dealt w/ (except for the fame and millions of loving fans). i've got friends& family out drinking and doing other things (that they probably shouldn't be doing) at a time whe there are so many other constructive things to do; i've lost soo many people, said soo many goodbyes, cried soooo many tears, and been thru soo much pain, that it's amazing (to me) that i'm here typing this today.my only wish was that someone was there to give me advice during all the hard times, so that is why i write this. My advice to a.j., and all of you is to not take life for granted. Appreciate the things that you have- even if they don't seem like much by your standards or by the standards around you- and treat people the way you want to be treated; be kind to everyone that you can be kind to b/c life is tooooo short for hate, and know that for all the hard times in life "They too shall pass." I don't know what all of you believe in, but if all else fails, believe that everything happens for a reason and while yo may not know or understrand the reason, know and trust that God knows what he's doing. don't give up on life-even if it doesn't seem worth living- b/csome people weren't fortunate enough to live life and do all the things that many of us have the opportunity to do.
*****get better a.j.; and maybe one day i'll get to talk to you in person, and give you the one thing i'm given by my friends (who i'm so blessed to have now), when life gets too tough or stressful; a hug, mixed with a little love and chocolate-chip cookie dough ice cream.=)*****
take life "step by step" and one day @ a time, because life is beautiful and so are all of you reading this.....even n'sync [ i guess.j/k =)]
much love & chocolate-chip cookie dough, britt-britt =)
Submitted by Elyse from Chicago IL USA
Date: Wed Jul 11 05:45:47 2001
I felt so bad when I heard the news about AJ. But I think he did the best possible thing he could for both himself and the rest of the group. Knowing that all of his fans would still support him after he healed himself, and knowing that BSB would remain alive in the hearts of all the true fans, he took the time to get better so that BSB would be able to continue on doing what they love, and what the fans love to hear! Take care AJ!!! We love you, and we can't wait to hear your awesome voice once again!!!
Submitted by Femme from Netherlands
Date: Wed Jul 11 05:42:47 2001
All my prayers go to you, AJ, hang in there.
Love,
Just a fan
Submitted by Liis from Paide Estonia
Date: Wed Jul 11 05:42:15 2001
Dear A.J. I was really sorry to hear about your problems. I hope everything turns out okay
for you, and you are back normal self soon. I'm sure you can do it.
Please take care! From your loyal fans in Estonia Liis
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