Submitted by Val from Erie PA USA
Date: Wed Jul 11 11:54:28 2001
AJ,
As far as I know, you are one of the bravest men ever. Most people with problems such as yours try to hide it and tell no one. But you saw the light and decieded you need help. I'm so proud. When I saw Nick, Brian, Kevin, and Howie on TRL I broke into tears. And when they said they were going to pospone all their July shows I cried harder. I was supposed to see you guys in concert on July 14 in Buffalo. But now i realize that AJ is getting the help he needs and I can wait as long as it takes. Only 69 more days until September 18. AJ, if you ever read this, I wish you the best of luck and get well as soon as you can. I've been a fan for 5 years and this is the first time I've seen you guys in concert and I can wait as long as it takes. I love you guys!
Submitted by Mary from USA
Date: Wed Jul 11 11:54:21 2001
A.J
i am listening to your song lay down beside me right now while i am crying i know you can get better we are all praying for you and we all love you. i am so sad about your grandma and that you have to go through this and have to stop your tour but i dont care if you need to stop your tour all i care about is that you get better i am sure we all feel the same way. yesterday i was at cedar point with my friend and we just checked in our hotel and i put on MTV and trl was on then carson said here are the backstreet boys i freaked out because i was not home to tape it and than i looked at them and you were not there i freaked out. o thought you lefted the group or something and than they said all that stuff it was justed so terrible. me and my friend were crying. and just before that we got stuck on a big ride and the whole time i was thinking about all of use than i heard in my hotel. and when we went to dinner my friends mom said all this stuff and i got so mad and i wanted to say something but than i figured that i have to spend the rest of the day with her so i decided not to. keep praying every day and you will be in all of our prayer i love you and i hope you get better.
Submitted by Angela from Philadelphia Pennsylvania USA
Date: Wed Jul 11 11:53:53 2001
AJ,
It's hard for me to imagine that just one short week ago I saw you all happy and entergetic on the Tweeter Center stage in Camden and now your down. My heart goes out to you and the hopes that you will recover soon. Just keep it up and you get though. Just remember all of the love you have around you!! Get well soon. Love you lots,
Angela
Submitted by backstreetgirl from USA
Date: Wed Jul 11 11:53:45 2001
AJ you will probably never read this but I want you to know that I love you and admire you for doing this. I know someone who is an alchaholic but they didn't face it like you are. I just finished my first year of high school and it was really hard because I am shy and don't make friends easily. Backstreet Boys helped to get through it. You guys are my angels and I will always love you no matter what and even though you don't know me and probably never will I pray for you every night and I am there for you. Get better soon.
Love
backstreetgirl
Submitted by clare from Austin Texas USA
Date: Wed Jul 11 11:50:17 2001
dear aj,you are a wonderful person i am am very proud of you for stppeing up the the bat and telling the fans and bsb about your problems its very hard to admit you have a problem..you got guts! i will keep you in my prayers and take your time to recover your fans and me will be waitng for you...god bless you, your family and the backstreet boys. we love you and hope you et better soon
clare*
Submitted by Jennifer from texas USA
Date: Wed Jul 11 11:48:43 2001
i wish i had the courage to do what you did. i struggle with drinking and drugging, and the past few weeks its gotten worse. what i do to me scares me and the fact that i cant stop scares me even more.i know i need to get professional help, but im scared to tell my parents. but you doing this has made me seriuosly think about going to a rehab.
i just wish the best luck to you and i hope it all gets better soon, and that empty blackness inside goes away soon.
god bless you, and your family.
Submitted by JESSICA from Phoenix ARIZONA USA
Date: Wed Jul 11 11:47:28 2001
AJ This is Jessica my prayers are with you
in this difficult time. Always remember that all
of your fans love you and they want to see you happy :0) . You have a long road ahead of you
be strong in your faith and keep communication
open with the guys. I will always be a BSB fan
even in time of trial.
Submitted by aileen from highlands ranch colorado USA
Date: Wed Jul 11 11:45:01 2001
Dear A.J.,
I have no idea if ur going 2 read this or not but i hope u will. I'm sorry 4 what ur going through right now.I was heartbroken when i heard the bad news. I never thought it would happen 2 u, but things do happen when u least expect it, and this is one of those things. Its a tough thing 2 go through, but i know u will make it through because u r strong, very strong. I know what ur goin through. My mother was suffering deppression 4 a while and my aunt was put into rehab as well, but they both made it through and i know u will. I am sooo proud of u that u stood up and admitted ur problems so u could get help 4 them. It was a very brave thing 2 do, and i respcet very much u 4 it. I just wanted 2 wish u the BEST of luck. please get better!
i love u sooo much and u have to get better!!
~~luv ya lots~~
*aileen*
Submitted by Erin from Highland Park IL USA
Date: Wed Jul 11 11:42:30 2001
Aj as far as i am concerned, you are the bravest person in the world right now. Not only have you made a decision on your own that will change your life, but having all of your fans know it and not try to "cover it up" only makes you a better man. I've had to deal with a situation such as this within my own family and i can tell you that it is not easy. You will have hard times but you've already gone through the hardest part which is realizing who you are and who you have to become. You are a great man with a serious problem but i know that you have the support of millions of people who care about you and you will make it.
Submitted by Irene from Haifa, Israel Israel
Date: Wed Jul 11 11:38:09 2001
Hi, AJ! I'm Irene from Israel and I understand your problems. You always was a strong men and I believe in you. Your great big heart was broken and you felt the pain every day, but we don't want to see that you need a help. Sorry Alex. We was blind.
And now we want to send you all our love to you and a rest of the boys. You know that all Backstreet boys like a brothers, and your voice always was one of more importent voice for hurmony. They need you very much and they love you so much, because only your friendship most importent then many other things.For all money in the world you can't buy such a great friends like Howie D, Nick Carter, Brian Littrell and Kevin Richardson.
God Bless you Alex , all your family and All Backstreet Boys.P.S. Nick was totaly in shoke. He was almost crying. I'm worried about him, because it doesn't matter that he is 21 years old, inside he is still a little boy and he was worryed about you Alex, and scaryed about your future. Alex, such a good name. I have my 15 years old son and his name Alex too. I love you like my own son and I wish you to be strong and all love in the world.
Irene.
http://www.bsbnews.net/
Submitted by Lorin from NY Mastic USA
Date: Wed Jul 11 11:36:07 2001
AJ-It took a lot on your part to address the problem that you have, to get it fixed, to make it better. I know that you will come through okay, and be your old self again, able to be back up on stage where you love to go. But if you arent ready in 30 days take as much time off as you need. You can cancle this whole entier tour if that is what you need to get better. I love you...FEEL BETTER SOON! Here is a poem I wrote for you...
AJ MCLEAN
Your light, slowly turned into a dark cold night
Your smile, turned into frowns
Leaving you trapped in a world of despair
leaving you so unaware
of a world you once knew
Wishing so badly to turn it all around
But knowing so sadly that you could not-
That the strength for that just could not be found
You long for True Love
You long for the real you,
The one you once knew
You came to your senses
And let your four closest friends know
that you need (ed) help
Now, receiving the treatment you longed for, for so long
It makes you one step closer
To it all being gone
One day I know a light will appear
Right in front of you
One, that has always been there
But only visible when you allowed it to be
A light of God's angels
telling you
that you are loved
that one day you will find your true love
a light
that lets you know it'll all be okay
But...,
for now, through this time
A time of sorrow
I know you need your space
But I also know
That together we can make it
together we will
For together the weakness, the hardship
we can kill!!!
Submitted by April Tiffany from Greensboro North Carolina USA
Date: Wed Jul 11 11:35:42 2001
AJ,
I just want you to know that I am with you a 100%! We all are... all your fans! We deeply care about you as a person and I hope this will prove to other people that these guys are just that...guys! Normal everyday guys! They aren't gods! They make mistakes just like you and me! But they all deserve the prayers and support just as much! AJ.....you need to know that we as a backstreet family are praying for you everyday to recover and it's a shame you didn't come forward earlier!:-( We wouldn't have been mad and I'm sure the boys would have been fine with it too! We care about you as a human being and not as a member of some famous music group! But....we care about you....you AJ..not you..the celebrity..the hottie..the God! We all make mistakes and it takes courage to admit them and admit you need some help! We all care for you and will be pulling for you the whole step of the way! We love you AJ! Get better soon! May God Bless and heal you to a fast recovery! I'll be praying for you! ^8^ ^8^ (your guardian angels!!!!!) I love you AJ!... and the rest of the boys( We love you, too! I love you especially NICK!) :-)..but...take care of him for us..make him stronger! You can email me if you want to!!
Love ya always,
April:-)
Submitted by Christina from Buffalo New York USA
Date: Wed Jul 11 11:33:14 2001
AJ,
you are one amazing person, do u know that? I hope you do. Everyone here in Buffalo send you great wishes to get well soon. I would wait a lifetime to see you guys in concert and no matter how long it is, you can count on this Backstreet fan to be in her seat cheering you guys on. I love you guys and have been a fan from the start. Nick, Brian, Kevin, and Hoiwe, you are brave boys and thank you for being honest with all of us. We appreciate it. Nick good luck and I hope your hand is well soon. AJ, seriously Backstreet Boys wouldnt be the same without you. You have alot of people who care about you, and we hope to see you soon ! thank you for everything ! We love you guys to death.
BUFFALO NEW YORK LOVES BACKSTREET BOYS AND AJ MCLEAN, WE WILL STAND BY YOU FOREVER !
Submitted by Anne Marie from Syracuse NY USA
Date: Wed Jul 11 11:32:08 2001
I would just like to say that I was devestated when i heard the news about AJ on monday. I love the boys so much as all the fans do. They have the power to make so many people so happy, and i know that we all want them to be truely happy in return. I want AJ to know that all of us fans love and support him and we want him to get the help he needs to get better. AJ, I am so proud of you for being so brave. I know that it is very hard to admit that you have a problem. That is the first step on the road to recovery. We the fans will support you all the way, and if you need more time take it, we will wait as long as it takes for you to come back, we will always love you and the rest of the guys. So AJ, concentrate on getting better, i will keep you and the rest of the guys in my prayers. I know you can get well AJ, you have the support from so many people that love you!
Submitted by Tanya Breakiron from Brookville OH USA
Date: Wed Jul 11 11:32:08 2001
A.J.,
I know you are probably not able to read this so this kind of goes to all of the Backstreet Boys. My Mom and sister also have
you in their prayers. They are proud of you for taking that step. That says a lot because my sister is like the biggest Aerosmith
fan alive. Anyway we all hope that you are wanting and needing to get that help that you need. I know you are scared, but I hope '
that you can overcome your problems.Gosh I did not realize your problems were so bad, because you hid it so well. I always thought that the tatoos and everything were
because you were like that. I did not realize that there was something much deeper behind the surface. I sincerely hope that you get that
help that you need.
I am going to share something with you that I did not really think I would share with someone who would read this. But I had problems
with my father, because he was messed up himself medically. Although he did not drink he could get quite mean, because of what was
going on with him medically. So I had lived with my grandparents and my mother since I was seven years old. And because I am also
twenty three I can understand how close you might have grown to your grandparents. I can't imagine losing my grandparents, because
my grandpa especially literally became my father almost. He even walked my sister down the aisle at her wedding. So I know what it is
like to be pretty attached to grandparents.
But I also know what it is like to have many personal demons, because I certainly have lots of those and thank God I never turned to
drinking. Even though I have been legally able to drink for two years I can count the amount of times I have had alcohol on my hand
and then only a few sips. The last time I had anything was last August at a wedding. And it was because it was a toast. I hope that you
can take some strength from the Lord to get you through all of this. Trust me he will help. And I have something to tell you that might
give you some comfort. My grandpa James died almost ten years ago, and there are sometimes that my sister thinks that he might be
watching out for her. So remember when the times get pretty rough, that you might have someone who is looking out for you. Because
grandpa has possibly helped her out a number of times. I am not sure if it was this site or another one, but my sister did leave a message
for you somewhere.
I hope this gives you some comfort and please know that we all are praying for you.
Love,
Tanya
p.s. I just want you to know that you guys are terrific and I like you as my favorite group, because I think that all of you are fine human beings.
