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Submitted by Alicia from Vancouver BC Canada
Date: Wed Jul 11 23:05:39 2001
Dear AJ,
I have no idea how to start this but here goes! I just have to say first that I totally support you in everything you and the BSB do. You guys are a total inspiration and have effected my lives so much. I am so proud that you told us and had the strength to ask the guys for help. That must have took a lot. I know you know this but in case you forgot, that us(the fans), Nick, Bri, Kev and D, your family all love you sooooo much and will be there for you till the end. When I saw the guys talking about you and breaking down I melted. I cried a lot when I heard about what you are going through. I really hope you get through this. I was very ecstatic when I heard the first date after you get better is here in Vancouver! I was so happy! I hope I can meet you all there! I am in fourth row seat 42~look for me,k? I love you so much and will be a fan forever. I fell in love with you guys the day I heard you guys(Fall of 96) I am so glad the guys didnt hide it from us. Aj everyone is praying for you... you know that and hopefully that gets you through.I'll see you August 7! I love and support you so much!! Please get better!:) You will always have Vancouver fans..I'm sorry we didnt sell out but I am working on it. Stay positive! Thank you for everything and for coming to the guys first. I love you. KTBSPA!BSB 4 eva!
~Alicia~
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Submitted by Ali from NY USA
Date: Wed Jul 11 23:05:16 2001
Dear A.J.,
You are the bravest person I know for being able to come out and tell the world about your problem. I have been a huge Backstreet Boys fan for a long time now, and you have been a huge inspiration. I would just like to let you know that you have taken a giant step in your life by not only coming out and admitting that you have a problem, but also by getting yourself help. I admire you and I look up to you even more now. I pray for you every night that you will get better, and I know with all of my heart that you will pull through...I know that I don't know you that well, but I KNOW YOU ARE STRONG MAN!!! I love you with all of my heart, and I hope (AND I KNOW) that you will pull through this!! Lots of love for you AJ! U are a HUGE INSPIRATION to the WHOLE world!
~YOUR #1 FAN & SUPPORTER
Submitted by CAITLIN TRAPP from BROCKTON MASSACHUSETTS USA
Date: Wed Jul 11 23:03:58 2001
~ AJ ~
SWEETY ALL YOUR FANS ARE PRAYING FOR YOU. NOT ONLY YOU BUT FOR THE GUYS AND YOUR FAMILY AS WELL. I WISH YOU THE BEST OF LUCK SWEETY. YOU ARE A VERY STRONG MAN AND I KNOW YOU CAN GET THROUGH THIS! YOU KNOW ITS GUNNA BE HARD GETTING THROUGH THIS ALONE BUT YOUR NOT ALONE YOU HAVE 4 OF THE BEST FRIENDS YOU COULD POSSIBLY HAVE, THEY WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU, YOU ALSO HAVE YOUR FAMILY, AND ME. I RECENTLY MET BROOKE AND SHE IS THE SWEETEST THING IN THE WORLD. MY DAD DIED 2 YEARS AGO AND YOU HAVE HELPED ME THROUGH THIS SO MUCH, I HAVE LOST SOME OF MY BEST FRIENDS AND I HAVE ALMOST TAKEN MY LIFE A FEW TIMES, BUT SOMETHING YOU SAID AND A CERTAIN SONG MADE ME REALIZE WHAT I HAVE TO LIVE FOR. I WAS LISTENING TO SOME RAGE AND I HAD SOMETHING IN FRONT OF ME WHEN SHOW ME THE MEANING CAME ON..IT WAS A STATION THAT PLAYS ALL ROCK I WAS THINKIN WHY ARE THEY PLAYIN THIS AND I TOOK IT AS A SIGN AND STOPPED WHAT I WAS THINKING OF DOING. I SAW YOU IN CONCERT LAST SATURDAY (JULY 7TH, THE LAST SHOW YOU PREFORMED AT) YOU WERE AWSOME AS WERE THE REST OF THE GUYS. I LOVE WATCHING AND LISTENING TO YOU LIVE. YOU HAVE THE VOICE OF AN ANGEL! I HAVE FAITH IN YOU IF YOU SAY YOU LOVE YOUR MUSIC AND PREFORMING AS MUCH AS YOU DO (WHICH I BELIEVE YOU DO) YOU WILL MAKE IT THROUGH THIS HARD TIME! SWEETY I HAVE BEEN GOING THROUGH A STATE OF DEPRESSION FOR THE PAST TWO YEARS AND I KNOW EXACTLY HOW YOU FEEL. PLEASE EMAIL ME WHEN YOU READ THIS. (AJM143@AOL.COM) YOUR AN ANGEL! IM PRAYING FOR YOU EVERYDAY! YOU'LL MAKE IT HUN I HAVE FAITH IN YOU. ADMITTING YOU HAD THE PROBLEM WAS THE HARDEST STEP, THE REST WILL JUST FLOW. YOUR AN INSPIRATION TO EVERYONE. LOVE YOU! KEEPIN THE BACKSTREET PRIDE ALIVE AND KEEPING THE SUPPORT GOING FOR YOU!! HOPE TO HEAR FROM YOU SOON!
LOVE ALWAYS AND FOREVER
LOYALY DEVOTED FAN 4 EVER (NOT A STALKER DON'T WORRY LOL :O)LOVE YOU SWEETY!)
CAITLIN
Submitted by Erika Middendorf from Evansville IN USA
Date: Wed Jul 11 23:02:19 2001
~*AJ*~
AJ I can't even begin to start to tell you how proud I am of you. Not a lot of people would have the courage to already accomplish what you have.Please get better soon!!It kills me to know what you are going through. Just know that all of your fans love you always through anything no matter what.I know that you will make a quick recovery you are a strong person and you have so much support from everyone. I hope that you will realize that you have so many people everywhere that love you that you don't need to go to things like alcohol or anything like that to find comfort. I will have you in my prayers like you always have been. I wish I could in some way know what you are going through but there is no possible for me to understand. Just know that I love you greatly and that just listening to your voice got me through some of the roughest time in my life. I know that is no consilation to what you are going through but I hope knowing that helps speed up your healing process in some little way.I wish you the best now and always. You are in my prayers forever and GOD is with you guiding you and helping you through everything you go through.
Love always,
your undying fan Erika
Middendorf
Submitted by Charlene from Canada
Date: Wed Jul 11 23:01:20 2001
hey aj.
i hope you get well really soon. we all miss you.
you are a great role model to be honest with the fans and i respect you for that.
i'll be there for you. you are in my prayers.hugs and smiles for you =)
love, charlene
Submitted by Andria Stinnett from Hanford Ca. USA
Date: Wed Jul 11 23:01:13 2001
Dear A.J, I am so sorry for you having to go through something so awful. No one deserve's to go through something like this. Espcially you! You have no idea how proud of you I am. Admitting that you have a problem and getting help is something most people in your position can never do. They feel scared and weak to admit something like that. But, you are a very strong person and I know that no matter how many doubts or fears you had, you knew you can do it, and so did we! When I first heard about this I cried so much because something like this should never happen to a wonderful, sweet, kind hearted, and talented person like you. I always look on the bright side about all this. Because I know you will get better and come out happier than ever! I always pray for you everyday. You are always in my heart, mind, and in my prayer's. My whole family is praying for you. I love you so much and I hate hearing about you this way and seeing the other guys so sad like this. BSB and their fans are like one big family! Whatever you feel, we feel. When you feel sad. We're feel sad. When you are happy. Then we're happy! I just want you to know that you have lots and lots of people in this world who pray for you and think about you every second of everyday. I know that after all this is done, other people that have the same problem will learn from this and will be able to take that huge step and getting help. So, not only are you helping yourself but your helping others like you. I think thats an amazing thing. I want you to take your time and get well because the only thing that matters to me and all the other fans is your health. We need you healthy and happy again. I love you with all my heart. Get well soon.
Submitted by Cheryl from Toronto Ontario Canada
Date: Wed Jul 11 23:01:04 2001
Hey AJ!
All I have to say is thank you. Thank you for recognizing you had a problem and wanting to get the help you need. In March of this year I lost my stepmom who meant the world to me. At 38 years of age she tragically and suddenly was taken away from us. She had been missing for two months before they found her body in a field near her home. Those two months were the worst two months of my life. My stepmom was clinically diagnosed as being Manic Depressive and was also and alcoholic. Unlike you, she didn't admit to having a problem. That's just the type of person she was, thinking she didn't need help, that nothing was wrong with her, when obviously there was and she needed help desperately. She was put into rehab where she should have been for a month. She was there for a week and a half, and begged us to take her out. A few days later she was missing and two months later was found dead. I truly believe that if she had admitted to her problem and had gotten help, she would be alive today. When I heard about you I cried tears of sadness because it hit home for me and tears of relief and joy because you were able to admit to your problems and you wanted help. I know what can happen first hand if you don't admit it and trust me you don't wanna go there. AJ, I am so proud of you. You were strong enough to help yourself. I only wish my stepmom was as strong as you are. I look up to you for your strength, you ARE my hero. Get better soon and I hope to see you at the Toronto concerts back and better than ever. You will be in my prayers and in my heart. Luv ya!Love Always,
Cheryl P.S. Remember, everyone is on your side and we all love you.
Submitted by Nairoby from Princeton NC USA
Date: Wed Jul 11 23:00:14 2001
Hey AJ!
I just wanna say that you are a very brave person and I hope you know we all LOVE you and are behind you all the way. You are definitely in my prayers and thoughts. I hope all this will make you a stronger human being. I know you have a big heart and are a great person . I know you will get through this, God will help you just let Him lead you through. I want to say something honestly, from my heart and soul and I hope it will encourage you.... I would give up all the times I've been to your awesome shows and the many times I've met you guys or just the many times I've enjoyed being around you (which has meant the world to me). I would give all that up just to see you back healthy and happy, like you've always been. You are a very special person and we (fans) all adore you. You guys have shown me many things about life and this is just another trail, and you will get through this. I LOVE YOU as a friend and as a real person that has affected my life. Get well soon, we (fans) will be here waiting for you. You are the BEST!
Submitted by Kelly from St. Petersburg FL USA
Date: Wed Jul 11 22:59:02 2001
~AJ~
I just wanted to tell you that coming out with your problem shows extreme courage and strength in character. Although I don't know you besides what I've read or seen on TV, I can tell that you are a strong person with a lot of determination. I think that you can make it through this with the support of your loved ones at home, which you obviously have. I also think that you coming out with your problem could show people that its ok to admit when there is a problem and it does't make them any less of a person. I just want you to know that I fully support you and your decision to get help, because if you aren't happy and healthy then what's life all about ya know? I will continue to keep you and your family in my prayers as you (and they) go through a dificult time.
*May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy.
*Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched, and those who tried, for only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives.good luck and God bless,
Kelly
Submitted by Tricia from Bethel CT USA
Date: Wed Jul 11 22:55:07 2001
Dear AJ,
I just wanted to send my best wishes to you and your family during this difficult time. When I saw u're fellow bandmates on MTV break the news I was in tears because I just thought on how i saw you two weeks earlier in Hartford and you seemed so happy. You made my day by being that way and I know that deep down inside you were hurting and I'm sorry for that. You made so many peoples day with your beautiful voice and that just shows the good heart that you have. You were willing to sacrifice your own happiness for your fans and we all love you for that. I also was crying because I realized how close that you and the boys are. They all support you and I think thats great. If anything this will make you guys stronger and bring you closer together. Just think of the song "Time" its explains it perfectly. I am here for you just as you and the music was here for me when my aunt passed away. It was such a difficult time but I would just turn on your music and I would be happy. That's what got me through this, YOU AND THE MUSIC!!! You will get through this by the love and support of your family, friends and your fans. We all support you and wish you the best. Get well soon!! I look forward to seeing you soon. I am praying for you every night and all my best wishes are for you. I love you lots!!!!
From a grateful 4 life fan,
Tricia!!!
Submitted by Courtney Register from Raleigh North Carolina USA
Date: Wed Jul 11 22:55:02 2001
Hey AJ!!!!!
Hey!!!! I have been a BIG fan of yours from the beginning! I love everything about you!!! You are such a strong person!!! I know that you are going to make it through this!!!!! You are one of the main reasons that I love the BSB sooo much! I have been to so many concerts to see you!!!! You are an awesome preformer!! I was sooooooo sad to hear about your struggle with depression, but its wonderful that you are going to get the help you need. All of your fans including myself LOVE you very much and when you hurt we hurt! You are totally in my prayers!!! I cried for hours when I found out that you were not well!!!! When I turned on TRL and they said that the Backstreet Boys had a special announcment I was soooo happy that I could hear from my BOYS!!!! Then when I saw that only 4 of my boys were there I wondered where AJ was...... then I found out the news and all that I could do was cry! It upset me soooo badly to know that you were hurting! Then when they played that song that you wrote(which was beautiful) that was it.... I could not stop the tears from falling! The part when you said " I wanna be happy" I could see the pain that you were in!! AJ I want you to know that I want you to be happy to!!! Not only do I respect you as a singer and preformer, but I respect you as a person!!! When I saw you on June 13 @the Raleigh Arena I thought that you looked sooooo good and I would have never guessed that you were battling depression!! BY the way you looked REALLY good at that concert!!!!!! I hope that at the end of the 30 day treatment you will feel like a new man again and have the strengh to go on!!! There isnt a backstreet without AJ!!!!!! My friend and I think that you are gorgeous and totally talented!! It made my night when you took the time to look down at me and wave!!! You may not know the impact that you have on people, but just let me tell you-- its a BIG one!! Your voice is sooo powerful!!!! If I am ever feeling down all I have to do is listen to your voice and it cheers me up!!!! Thats all it takes!!!! I dont know if you realize how much people love you, but be assured you are truly loved!! All of your fans are hurting along with you!!! Please get better soon and come back to the Backstreet Boys!!! You are such an inspiration to me and everyone else!!! This is a wonderful step that you are taking!! I am trying not to look at it as a sad moment, but a happy one!! Knowing that you are getting help is a way to assure the fans that you will get better and you will become stronger as a person and feel better about yourself!!! AJ you are not alone in this!!! We all love you and I wanted to make sure that you knew that!! I Love you!!! Get better soon!!!!
Love Your #1 Fan,
Courtney Register
PS-- You are the perfect guy!! I hope that one day, God blesses me with a man like you!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!
Submitted by Jennifer from Jackson MS USA
Date: Wed Jul 11 22:54:39 2001
Hey AJ!
When i heard you were in rehab, i didnt beleive it at first. i had never heard you had any alchohol related problems or depression. but i want to tell you, pray to God and he will help you through this, trust me. I love you so much and wouldnt want to see you hurt like this. Just remember the verse...Psalms 56:3~ "What time i am afraid i will trust in Thee" just recite that to yourself when you doubt things. i hope you get better soon and can return to BSB!
Love you soooooooo much. Get better soon. And remember the verse.
~*Jennifer*~
Submitted by Sheida + Kristina from LOs Altos CA USA
Date: Wed Jul 11 22:53:14 2001
I'm really glad that the backstreet boys decided to come out and be open about this. So many people in the world today have depression problems. And especially with teens. I'm just glad that he's getting help so others who might have the same issues will make the right decision to get help like AJ did. We love you AJ and our prayers are with you always. And to the rest of the BSB we always wish you the best. Nick we hope your arm gets better! Love you guys!
Submitted by Debra from Winnipeg Manitoba Canada
Date: Wed Jul 11 22:53:04 2001
I'm happy to hear that you have taken a very large first step by admitting there is a problem. I think that it takes a strong person to admit that. The decision to pospone the tour dates was a good one. I believe that with Brian,Kevin,Howie and Nick talking about it in the open rather than trying to cover it up was also a good decision. This can happen to anyone, and I think that more people need to be aware of this. With the support of family, friends and fans from around the world, you will overcome this and be a stronger person. My thoughts, good wishes and prayers are with you, your family and the rest of "the boys". Get well soon because you have a million fans that want to see you on the road again!!P.S. Next Cdn tour, I hope it includes Winnipeg as I have never seen you guys in concert. From what I heard it is a great show. You have been blessed with a talent that all of your fans love!!Take care......
Submitted by Amanda Johnson from Erie Illinios USA
Date: Wed Jul 11 22:49:27 2001
Dear AJ,
I am so happy that you are getting treated for everything. I pray for you to get better every night before I go to bed. I wish you well and I Amanda Johnson am a big fan and I am not going anywhere. I really admire you for being honest with us the fans. Love Always,
Amanda
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