Submitted by Rosiane from Rio de Janeiro Rio de Janeiro Brazil
Date: Sat Aug 18 08:35:57 2001
hi,aj!!!!!
this the third time that i am writing for you and i will continue wrting because i just can,t get tired of saing how much we,here in rio,love you and we just can,t live without you.i know that you are going to recover and come back better than ever!
i love and i hope that you will come back as soon as possible up to here(rio de janeiro).
we are missing you so much that you don,t have no idea!
kisses and sorry about the mistakes!
be cool,behave and be real!
ps:you are the best!
with true love:rose (All caps detected. Message converted to lowercase)
Submitted by Ashley Rebekah from Virginia Beach Virginia USA
Date: Sat Aug 18 04:10:04 2001
Dear Alex, I'm not the most poetic being on the planet, but I'll try to express my feelings. I look at the Backstreet Boys and I see real and very personal human beings. I see other groups and they seem so untouchable. They don't have the respect for their fans like you guys. H'm....this isn't coming out right. OK, well, I just wanted to tell you, Alex, that the fact that you shared such a personal trial with us means more than I think you understand. And the feeling of being able to rejoice in your tribulation with you is an even better feeling. You mean so much to your fans. You really, really do. And I pray to God that you guys will be profoundly blessed for the many lives that you have touched, including mine. God bless you Mr. McLean, you and your sweet, gentle, ADORABLE mother.
Submitted by Kim from Coconut Creek Florida USA
Date: Fri Aug 17 23:07:28 2001
Alex,
When you stepped up and admitted you had a problem and you realized you couldn't do it alone, you made me so proud. I know it sounds so corny, but it took a lot of courage to do what you did in your situation. Since that day, every time I hear someone say, "What the hell does he have to be depressed about?" and "Poor little rich boy!" I want to scream! I guess some people are so ignorant to the fact that aside from you being HUMAN, you have a whole other set of issues to deal with. You may not have to worry about paying your bills or never wanting for anything again for the rest of your life, but you have made the ultimate sacrifice in order to do the very thing that you love most of all. You have given up your privacy, personality and in a sense your sanity to make yourself and the ones who love you happy. I just wanted you to know that your sacrifice means the world to me. I'm 31 and sometimes hearing and seeing the emotion, love, pain, desire, happiness and lonlieness that make you you is the only thing that keeps me going some days. People do not understand the effort you have given to make people feel the way they need to feel. I understand that and I understand your pain. I also appreciate you very much and I am wishing you the world. Some of my friends joke about me digging BSB and Alex so much, but you know what I tell them? I tell them if it makes me happy, that's all that matters. And you taking all the time you need is what matters also, because you make us happy and we will survive because you will survive and continue to bring joy into our lives. Please don't ever under estimate your fans and thier loyalty, devotion and love or most importantly, yourself! God speed.(alrighty then, am I a cornball or what?)
Submitted by Erin Peterson from Hawley PA USA
Date: Fri Aug 17 21:10:24 2001
AJ~
I hope you get better soon. The Backstreet Boys are my favorite band, and I can't imagine them without you in it. I LOVE YOU BABE!!!!!!!!!!
luv your #1 fan 4 ever,
Erin Peterson
Submitted by Shirley from Ontario Canada
Date: Fri Aug 17 20:21:46 2001
AJ
I hope that your doing well and i wish you the best of luck in the future i know you'll make it through this your a strong guy LOVE YA AJ AND BSB!!xoxo
Submitted by Paula Vidal from buenos aires capital federal Argentina
Date: Fri Aug 17 19:09:27 2001
A.J: my name is paula I'm fron Argentina so I can't speak english very well.
so... I hope that you can back to sing again with the best group on the world. you are a very shane person so I love you all, and I wish the best for you.
I'm did your fan since I had 6 years so so(now I'm 13 years old)so when I hearded that you has had to be in the hospital , I sure that I couldn't belived, I hope that you can be ok, you know, a lots of fans is waiting for you , we are pushing you and help you always to the best.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH...
I CAN'T WAIT TO
SEE THE
BACKSTREET...
LOVE...
=) PAULA (=:
Submitted by Somebody from bristol va USA
Date: Fri Aug 17 17:11:24 2001
Hello.....just wanted to say although i dont listen to your music that much i think that AJ has shown tru courage.....i am a 23 year old male going throght pretty much the same things as you. it was very hard for me to admit to myself that i had a problem and that it was ok to let people know......the depression nearly leaded me to sucide...i just wanted to say to people out there that even though we see celebs as "bulletproof" they are real people too...AJ showd me thats its ok, and there are people who go what i go through everydayThanks Man!........i know the entry is cheesy but i couldnt put it all into words
Submitted by Sandra from San Juan del Rio Queretaro Mexico
Date: Fri Aug 17 17:02:25 2001
Hi!!! How are you?? I hope this is getting to you because I have written you lot's of messages in every web page I can. Maybe you know who I am already.I just want to tell you how much I love and support you. Maybe you have read this a lot of times but I really don't care... I hope you are better right now and ready to go on tour again. I have heard that you just can't wait to be on a scenery. I hope the whole tour goes well.
Ok, at last,I want you to have some fun so I willshare with you a story I have written about you...
The URL is:http://www.gorkypark.com/bsb/stories/display.cgi?id=424&sort=date&cat=2
That's it. My sister says she wants to see her big brother in concert so soon so you better come to Mexico again ehh...
Huggs, kisses and prayers from Mexico
Sandra
Submitted by Leigh from Buffalo New York USA
Date: Fri Aug 17 16:50:30 2001
A.j ( Alex )- I love you so very much and i hope one day we will meet. I cant tell you how many people support you ( i am sure you know though! ). I hope you are goign to have fun going back on the road ! I love you as much as i love the world because you are the world in my eyes ! How can you love somebody do much you dont even know?
Well i love you gald to hear you are dojng well
Submitted by asem from Burabay Kazakhstan, Akmola Algeria
Date: Fri Aug 17 14:02:39 2001
baby, AJ, I hope u r ok!! I'm praying for u every night!!! I love u very much!!! I know u r the best!!! and i love u BAckstreet boys!!
Submitted by siobhan from hayes london United Kingdom
Date: Fri Aug 17 10:22:56 2001
Aj
i was so sorry to hear that you were in rehab but im also really proud of you for admitting not just to your self but to all the people that care for you and love you(including your fans)that you had a problem.I think about you and pray that you are now feeling much better and are doing well.I cant wait to see you live and in action and looking and performing the way i always remember you after seeing you all at 1 of your shows. I love you AJ along with the other guys.
take care AJ
all my love
* SIOBHAN *
Submitted by Abbey Wilhelm from Kettering Ohio USA
Date: Thu Aug 16 23:21:47 2001
AJ i hope you get better soon i keep up on you 24/7 and i will be here for you in your bad times, rough times, sad times, amd happy times.i hope you get better soon because i miss seeing your sexy body and beautiful face in concert and on tv!!!there may be more bone fans out there but i am your biggest fan.so again i hope you the best and maybe you could email me and let me know how you are doing from time to time, i would love it if you did!!!well best wishes and god bless,
love always
your #1 fan
Abbey Wilhelm
Submitted by GISELE from sao paulo - sp Brazil
Date: Thu Aug 16 19:18:05 2001
tomorrow.....lights, everything begins
happingess, life,
explosion seems to be in harmony
crowds screaming n'crying
just for the moment...
suddenly the lights turn off
and the spectacle's end is coming
the last song
from a life made of them
the joy and pain mix themselves
watching the show ends...
everything of a way so beautiful n'calm
ends...
but would bbe this the end?
no one knows
suddenly the silence
nothing nearby
just silence...
no crowds , no joy
just pain...
a tear ran down on a face
pain and sorrow for can't have public
for can't see that spectacle of joy...
difficult accept the reality
of a sad room
dark like the night
that so much mysteries keeps...
other night passed away
other joy has gone
like the pain
and waht remains so???
tomorrow , just tomorrow
gisele mclean
20/07/01
remenber 1432229???
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Submitted by Melissa from n/a n/a Canada
Date: Thu Aug 16 17:30:46 2001
Hi AJ,
I just want to say that you are in my prayers and thoughts. Thank you so much for being open & honest - that takes a lot. I saw a 20/20 interview, they talked to your Mom. It was very sad, by the end me and my mom had tears in our eyes. I hope you will get better and continue with the BSB's but most of all continue with your life - and do things that make you happy!Luv BSB Fan
Mel
Submitted by Ana Isabel from Coahuila Mexico
Date: Thu Aug 16 13:16:03 2001
when i knew that A.J was havin a re-hab. i was proud of him, becaus so many singers have problems like that and never accept them.... so i think hes a good example to follow... i hope he gets out of the prob. completely! i wish him the best! =)
