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Submitted by Estee from Singapore Singapore Singapore
Date: Thu Jul 12 09:17:17 2001
hey there,
i'm reallie reallie sad to hear about AJ, and i hope he's gettin' better...
it's been reallie touching to see dat so many bsb fans haf penned in their best wishes here...
backstreet boys can never be backstreet boys without AJ, and i reallie hope he'll get juz as much support from those around him...
i'm reallie proud to noe dat it was AJ himself dat went forward to ask for help, and i admire him for dat!!
AJ: no matter wat, we'll always be behind u 100%! we'll always love u!!
God Bless and Lotsa Love!!
Submitted by leen carter from mol antwerpen Belgium
Date: Thu Jul 12 09:12:59 2001
I wich I was your sister A.J. bacouse than i could help you.
greetings from M.J. (leencarter)
Submitted by natalia from cali valle del cauca Columbia
Date: Thu Jul 12 09:12:12 2001
estamos rezando a diario por ti AJ y por tu salud y creeme, miles de fanaticas colombianas estamos deseando que logres recuperarte y continues haciendo lo que mas te gusta.
eres de lo mejor y sabemos que lo vas a lograr.
te queremos mucho.
Submitted by Meg* Pienaar from Wellington North Island New Zealand
Date: Thu Jul 12 09:09:34 2001
Dearest AJ,I'm not a poet, a singer, or a writer and don't always know how to put my feelings on to paper, and I won't be surprised if these things I have to say come out all wrong - which it probably will. But all I can tell you is that you are so brave. You are just so corageous, and honest, and .... amazing. I can't tell you how I felt when I read about your illness. It felt like something or someone had hit me really, really hard on the chest. When I read the lyrics to the song you sang I started crying so badly. I was lying awake in bed last night until 3:30am and ended up crying myself to sleep and praying to God to take care of you and to be with you every step of the way. I would give anything, anything to just be there with you and to hold your hand and tell you everything is going to be just fine. But you have to work this out on your own, and we're proud of you, no matter what the outcome. We'll still love you, AJ. We'll always support and love you. We, the fans, are here for you and we want you to know that. You're loved, appreciated, and cared for by millions of fans around the world, and not to mention your wonderful family and friends. I can honstly tell you that I know what it's like to lose someone so very, very close to you (I lost my grandmother in December '00, my grandfathe in 1995, my uncle in 1994 and my dad in 1988), and it's hard to cope with. I didn't feel like going on after my grandmother died, because she was the reason I lived. I lived to please her. I stayed in my room for days, crying and crying. I got angry with God, myself, my grandmother, my father and just about everyone else. I know death is a part of life and no matter what I do, I can never change that. It's still hard to live without her and I still cry very often, but I've accepted the fact that she had to leave. She spent a wonderful 60 years on this earth and touched many people, including me. Now that she's gone you guys (BSB, and your music) keep me going. I don't know what I would do without you. I owe you five wonderful people my sanity, and my health. I don't know what I would do if I can't lock myself in my room for a couple of hours, listen to your music, look at a picture of my grandma and bawl my eyes out. That's how I deal with my pain, my emotion, and it works at times. The pain, the scars will always be there for me (and for you) but we can move on and ovecome most of what has happened. I can never thank you enough for being the wonderful people that you are who have inspired me and shown me that honesty is the best way. AJ, you'll be fine. You're going to be alright, I just feel it in my heart. You have so much support and love from so many people right now.... You'll recover, I know you will. From the bottom of my heart, thank you. Thank you for being the brave and honest man that we know you are. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
Love always,
Meg*
stormers_chic@hotmail.com
Submitted by Nicole Gonzalez from Freehold New Jersey USA
Date: Thu Jul 12 09:04:53 2001
Dear AJ,
When the BSB came on the TRL show i thought at first they were goin to perform. The reason I thought that is b/c i was out and i didnt see the whole episode. The only part that i saw when i changed the channel to MTV, i saw Brian saying that "If someone has a problem like that,you should help." And i didnt see you. My heart stopped after that when the commercial come b/c i had no idea where you were and i scenced something wrong. Then,after the commercials, thats when i heard the news. I was so completly shocked b/c i never thouhgt you would be depressed and i never thought you have a alcohol problem. Well, this past summer, i had been very depressed of my body figure. i tried everything to be thin. But, then i realize all of that doesnt matter. I still exercise and i havce a new feelin about my body. What I'm trying to say is you have to realize that you should stop drinking and also be happy of what you have and that is your family and friends. I'm really happy that you are getting help. Cuz "You're a Survivor , You're not gonna give up, so dont stop, Go work harder, You're a suvivor, You're gonna make it, You're a survivor, Keep on survivnig." [song from DC3].
Always Praying,
NicoleG
Submitted by Pollyanna from São Paulo Sp Brazil
Date: Thu Jul 12 09:01:08 2001
My etern love....Well, Aj, never forget of the peoples that are in side... the peoples that love you, i´m one there´s people that are here prayer for you...
i want be near you but the distance don´t leave... but my heart, my mind stay with you
I don´t very good in words, but, every i feel is sincere I LOVE YOU this feel is the prove that you gonna well happy you are the best!!!
kisses... thousand´s kisses and hugs!!! for a guy that is my life... Pollyanna McLean
( one day baby... one day...)
Submitted by Adriana Carolina from Maracaibo Zulia Venezuela
Date: Thu Jul 12 09:00:50 2001
AJ: Hola espero que te encuentres bien y no te preocupes todo saldrá bien y recuerda que todos te queremos y lo que importa es tu salud, te estaremos esperando siempre, y algo que me gusta de ti es tu sinceridad lo digo porque tomastes la iniciativa y te distes cuenta de tu problema y eso es un paso muy importante. Que Dios te bendiga y te llene de valor y felicidad que es lo que te mereces y aquí en venezuela Maracaibo Estado Zulia hay una fan que te quiere y te querrá siempre , cuídate y te envío un beso grandote del tamaño del mundo y ánimo se que lo lograrás de eso estoy segura. ¡I Love You AJ!My Email is: adriana_carol56@hotmail.com
Submitted by GISELE CRISTINA DE CARVALHO BARCELOS from Uberaba Minas Gerais Brazil
Date: Thu Jul 12 08:57:58 2001
Dear AJ, I'M A BRAZILIAN FAN. WHEN I KNEW WHAT HAPPENED WITH YOU FELT WISH TO CRY. BUT CRY WILL NOT MAKE THE THINGS BETTER,THEN I DECIDED WRITE THIS LETTER TO SAY:
I LOVE YOU!I BELIEVE THAT VERY SOON YOU WILL COME BACK TO STAGE AND DANCE AND SING LIKE YOU ALWAYS DO (VERRY,VERY WEEL!).
TO YOU, BONE, MY BEST WISHES AND ALL MY LOVE!
ASS: GIBACKS, A BIG FAN. PS: PLEASE READ THIS MESSAGE BECAUSE WAS VERY HARD WRITE THE WORDS IN THE RIGHT WAY. IN THE OF ALL THE BRAZILIANS FANS: SEE YOU SOON!!!! BYE!
Submitted by Gaelle & Anne-Lise from Lons-le-Saunier France
Date: Thu Jul 12 08:33:09 2001
Dear AJ,
We are writing to you again 'cause we want you to know that we think about you...and so do every other fan throughout this world.We are just 2 fans among thousands but you have to know how concerned we feel... we don't see you like a popstar or one member of the top-selling band but just as a human being who needs help and comfort.In fact, even if we don't know you (we unfortunately never met you), it's as you were really close to us, like our big bro or best friend...it's a weird sensation.When we heard about your problems, we immediately felt concerned and we needed to help you somehow.It was kind of a reflex, a normal thing.So, we're writing this little message only for you.
As we told you earlier, you are like a big bro for us.we're so proud of knowing you (even if it's only through TV, the net...) because you've given us so much : especially the strength to believe in our dreams and to achieve the most to make them come true.Only 5 people have this influence on us : you and your 4 great buddies : the BACKSTREET BOYS !!! Together, you're not only a group but 5 people who have managed to make so many peolpe happy and motivated in life.You show us that everything's possible... That's what we want you to remember : Never lose faith and hope.Don't forget this sentence : "everytime you're down, we will make it right...".You do it for us 'cause you are LARGER THAN LIFE(and now, we'd like to do the same in return).I know you have enough strength to overcome those current troubles but don't forget to lean on your wonderful family, friends and fans.We'll always be there, whatever happens.
See you soon ...
lots of LOVE little "Ajounet"...
from Gaelle and Anne-Liseps: "ajounet" is a little nickname only for you... remember it, especially when you'll come to visit France !!! We'll check it !
Submitted by Rose Beasley from stillmore Georgia USA
Date: Thu Jul 12 08:31:00 2001
AJ,
I just want u to know how very proud i am of u.
most rock stars would just blow everyone and everything off saying that they can handle the problem and that it is under control. it took a real man (you) to admit that the problem was out of control on treading on dangerous territory.
you have my thoughts, prayers, love and encouragement. you also have my admiration for showing just what strength and courage your enormous heart possesses. everyone has trials and tribulations and i want to say that i think it is wonderful that u want to use your experience to help others with similar problems.
your my hero aj. i pray every day that u will overcome this (which i know without a doubt that u will) and be stronger than ever as a person, man, singer, son, and friend. i have all the confidence in the world in u aj. just remember "i can do all things through Christ Jesus who is my strength" u always put in your thank yous that Jesus is the reason u are where you are. so just put all your faith in him and he will bring you through this. u are an amazing person aj. and i just want you to know that im cheering you on every second of every day.
also that we (the fans) miss you terribly.
Backstreet Boys FOREVER!
love always and God Bless,
Rose B
Submitted by Anne from Ottawa Ontario Canada
Date: Thu Jul 12 08:28:57 2001
AJ, I pray for you each day. You have shown great strength by admitting you have a problem, that you are not well and
with that statement, you are on the path to recovery.
You know that your fans support you and will be there when you are well. Take the time you need to get better, we will
be there waiting for you with open arms and love. Love, hugs and kisses
Anne
Submitted by Miriam Dennis from London United Kingdom
Date: Thu Jul 12 08:13:51 2001
This passage was given to me by my teacher of 5 years as a gift to remember her by when I left school. She is currently fighting against cancer, and this passage made me realise what life is about. It inspired me so much, I hope it will you Aj."Go placidly amid the noise and the haste and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly, and listen to others, even the dull and ignorant; they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons; they are vexatious to the spirit. If you compare yourself to others you may become vain and bitter, for always their will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your career however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortune of time. Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself, especially to not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass. Take kindly the counsel of the years gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture the strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars: you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive him to be; and whatever your labours and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace with your soul. With all its shams, drudgery and broken dreams. It is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy." With love to all of the backstreet boys, Nick, Brian, Kevin, Howie, and Aj, be strong at this time you have my love and support always. Miriam Dennis
London
uk
Submitted by LuLu from ShenZhen GuangDong China
Date: Thu Jul 12 08:12:50 2001
Dear Aj:
I hope you will feel better soon.Please take care of yourself!!I love you forever!! Best wishes to you!!I'll look forward to seeing you soon on the stage!!I hope you'll get well soon!
Love you forever!
your fans
LuLu
01/7/12
Submitted by Samantha from Philadelphia PA USA
Date: Thu Jul 12 08:05:30 2001
AJ,
I know you may never read this, but then again, who knows?! You may!! And if you do, I want you to know how much I admire you for what you did. I've looked up to you before but the courage you showed gives me plenty to admire about you. I'm behind you all the way and there isn't a doubt in my mind that you will be back stronger than ever cause you are probably the strongest man I know, right now!! Be proud of yourself...we are!!! When I say "we", I mean me, and all the millions of other fans, your mother and family, your brothers(Brian, Nick, Howie and Kevin),my parents and millions of others, and grandparents!!! Thanks to me, both of my grandmothers know all your names and faces!!! Anyways...I just want to let you know that you and the others are in my prayers and will continue to be. Thank You so much for everything you've done and for having the courage to do this for yourself. We really, really, really, apprecitate it!!! Thanks again!!! We Love You!!
God Bless!!
Love Always,
Samantha (E-mail me at Kaosgirl1215@aol.com)
Submitted by Ellen (Laura's MOM) from Spencerport New York USA
Date: Thu Jul 12 07:59:24 2001
A.J.- Keep the faith, hon. You'll get through this. You've got the guts and spirit to do it. We're all praying for you up here (outside Rochester, NY). We'll be waiting. Ellen B.(otherwise known as Laura's MOM)
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