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Submitted by lau from Netherlands
Date: Mon Jul 16 07:41:52 2001
Hey AJ,I just want to say that it took a lot of currage to admit that you have a problem and that you got help for it. that is the first and biggest step to take. I know for sure you will get better and please take all the time you need to do so. So good luck with everything and stay strong. love always, lau
Submitted by Sevgi Beyhan aka Jenny Noname from Bursa Turkey
Date: Mon Jul 16 07:27:58 2001
Baby I've just heard your situation about alcohol.
I know that u'll get better soon 'cause you've strong physique and have got perfect fan Denise McLean.I just wanna u to know that me and all bsb fans always support u and be your side,I'll pray to God for u-A.J. I love u now...Forever n Whenever!(30 days come and gone)
I want to add that I'm sorry about great loss-Ursula Fernandez.
Submitted by Aline Azevedo from JF MG Brazil
Date: Mon Jul 16 07:18:05 2001
Dear AJ,
No matter what happen you'll always have my support and I'll always be here on your side for everything! I don't know what say so.... I'll tell yo what I'm really feeling ok? You're strong and I know you'll overcome this fast. You always helped me when I needed you and now I'm sending all my support, prayers and all my love for you. I want see yo in the tour and good!
Never forget any second I'll always be here on your side thinking about you and giving to you all my support, always! Because... I love you sooo mucchhh!!!
Stay fine, God blesses yo! Kisses!
ALINE :)
Submitted by marielle from Netherlands
Date: Mon Jul 16 06:39:41 2001
Dear AJI just want to say that i am proud at you because you admidded your trouble. And i just want to say that you are a strong men and i hope that you be soon better. I wiss you all the best and i allways keep the BACKSTREET PRIDE ALLIVE. Lots off love, marielle
Submitted by TUANA from ISTANBUL ----- Turkey
Date: Mon Jul 16 06:25:07 2001
darlin,
i just believe in you,and i wanna that you believe in yourself please.i know it is not easy cause i had same problem,but i won.so you can overcome,too.i am not worriying about you cause i am sure,you will win.i trust to you.let's hurry up a little bit.there a lot of people waiting for you and a good news about your health.( denise i support you all of my heart)i miss listening your voice,i miss looking your eyes,i miss everything about you.everyday i pray for you,baby.anyway,these are coming from the bottom of my heart.i wanted you to know.
don not for get this;you are a very strong person!
and do not forget this ;one day we will see each other.that's all i can say!the next move is yours!
tuana
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Submitted by TUANA from ISTANBUL ----- Turkey
Date: Mon Jul 16 06:23:38 2001
darlin,
i just believe in you,and i wanna that you believe in yourself please.i know it is not easy cause i had same problem,but i won.so you can overcome,too.i am not worriying about you cause i am sure,you will win.i trust to you.let's hurry up a little bit.there a lot of people waiting for you and a good news about your health.( denise i support you all of my heart)i miss listening your voice,i miss looking your eyes,i miss everything about you.everyday i pray for you,baby.anyway,these are coming from the bottom of my heart.i wanted you to know.
don not for get this;you are a very strong person!that's all i can say!the next move is yours!
tuana
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Submitted by TUANA from ISTANBUL ----- Turkey
Date: Mon Jul 16 06:22:22 2001
darlin,
i just believe in you,and i wanna that you believe in yourself please.i know it is not easy cause i had same problem,but i won.so you can overcome,too.i am not worriying about you cause i am sure,you will win.i trust to you.let's hurry up a little bit.there a lot of people waiting for you and a good news about your health.( denise i support you all of my heart)i miss listening your voice,i miss looking your eyes,i miss everything about you.everyday i pray for you,baby.anyway,these are coming from the bottom of my heart.i wanted you to know.
don not for get this;you are a very strong person!that's all i can say!the next move is yours!
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Submitted by TUANA from ISTANBUL ----- Turkey
Date: Mon Jul 16 06:20:42 2001
darlin,
i just believe in you,and i wanna that you believe in yourself please.i know it is not easy cause i had same problem,but i won.so you can overcome,too.i am not worriying about you cause i am sure,you will win.i trust to you.let's hurry up a little bit.there a lot of people waiting for you and a good news about your health.i miss listening your voice,i miss looking your eyes,i miss everything about you.everyday i pray for you,baby.anyway,these are coming from the bottom of my heart.i wanted you to know.
don not for get this;you are a very strong person!that's all i can say!the next move is yours!
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Submitted by TUANA from ISTANBUL ----- Turkey
Date: Mon Jul 16 06:19:27 2001
darlin,
i just believe in you,and i wanna that you believe in yourself please.i know it is not easy cause i had same problem,but i won.so you can overcome,too.i am not worriying about you cause i am sure,you will win.i trust to you.let's hurry up a little bit.there a lot of people waiting for you and a good news about your health.i miss listening your voice,i miss looking your eyes,i miss everything about you.everyday i pray for you,baby.anyway,these are coming from the bottom of my heart.i wanted you to know.
don not for get this;you are a very strong person!that's all i can say!next is yours!(All caps detected. Message converted to lowercase)
Submitted by TUANA from ISTANBUL istanbul Turkey
Date: Mon Jul 16 06:16:17 2001
darlin,
i just believe in you,and i wanna that you believe in yourself please.i know it is not easy cause i had same problem,but i won.so you can overcome,too.i am not worriying about you cause i am sure,you will win.i trust to you.let's hurry up a little bit.there a lot of people waiting for you and a good news about your health.i miss listening your voice,i miss looking your eyes,i miss everything about you.everyday i pray for you,baby.anyway,these are coming from the bottom of my heart.i wanted you to know.(All caps detected. Message converted to lowercase)
Submitted by Tracy from Pompano Beach Florida USA
Date: Mon Jul 16 05:14:50 2001
Hey babe,This is a P.S. to my last post. I just wanted to clarify something. When I mentioned some of the things you have going for yourself in your life and brought up the section about helping others ... that's just a future possiblity. I didn't mean you should run right out and do that. You NEED to get YOURSELF straight first. Only then would you be able to successfully run your own charity, fund, drive, whatever. Find a stable foundation and then fly baby fly. **HUGE hug** Tracy (aka Mystery72)
Submitted by Tracy from Pompano Beach Florida USA
Date: Mon Jul 16 04:52:36 2001
AJ -- I don't know what your EXACT situation is. My friend would have me believe that you got into drinking or whatever else because you just wanted to have "fun." I'm willing to give you the benefit of the doubt and assume that the depression and anxiety drove you to it as a coping method of sorts. I'd do that for anybody. He thinks I only care because you're the all mighty AJ from the Backstreet Boys ... please! I was in a relationship with an alcoholic AND a crack addict. He was noone famous, and I still tried to help him, but he didn't care at all about getting help. He blamed everybody else for his drug and alcohol abuse. Our relationship ended because not long after he threatened to hit me and just TAKE my money to buy drugs (I wouldn't give it to him willingly.), he then got just a bit more physical with me than I would accept. AJ, I think you have amazing potential. Your interests and talents read like a menu at a restaurant. Don't throw all that potential away on some "drug" ... whatever drug that may be. Eventually, you WILL lose EVERYTHING. You have to know that. My paternal family were all drug and alcohol abusers. Because of it, they beat each other on a regular basis and saw the inside of the local jailhouse more times than the wardens. My father lost his life to drugs and alcohol at the age of 32. I was seven ... remember I said I grew up with no father too. My mom took me away from the rest of the family because of their actions. She didn't want me around that mess any longer. If they had any potential, it was fried along with their brain cells from all the bull(beep) they did. I don't want to see you end up like my family, or some other notable names such as River Phoenix, Jimi Hendrix, Jim Morrison, Janis Joplin, John Belushi, Kurt Kobain, etc. etc. All of the celebrities I named had amazing talent, but how do people remember them most ... as the celebs that died from drugs. That's sad. River Phoenix was a developing young actor with quite a few films behind him (i.e. Stand By Me). He died on the sidewalk in front of the Viper Room club convulsing on the ground with people walking over him like he was some common bum on the street. One addiction of mine just about killed me, and believe me, if you're one of the lucky ones that can get that close to death and still get a chance to redeem yourself before it's too late, count your blessings. The deeper you get into addiction, the harder it is to realize for yourself that you have a problem. Now ... you're doing all this with rehab. I know you were in a sense pushed into it when the guys confronted you, but make sure you're doing this for yourself. Those things I spoke about is the reality of addiction. I think you know that. Face it ... don't deny it. And please, whatever you do, don't let yourself become one of those people who has a permanent revolving door at the rehab center. You're better than that. I know you are. Coming as close to death from something I inflicted on myself was the most frightening experience of my life. The only "short" future in addiction is of loneliness and despair, even if you're surrounded by people. Another little thing to think about ... alcohol poisoning ... I don't know if you've ever experienced THAT horror, but if you think you feel bad now ... you ain't seen nothin yet. I only had it at a milder degree, but I wasn't right for several days. That was the LAST time I had ANYTHING alcoholic. It's NOT WORTH IT. If I'm going to die, I'm going to go out fighting to live and making the most of the time I DO have. AJ ... you love to sing ... it'll kill your voice ... you love to write ... it'll cloud your mind ... I hear you like to socialize ... it'll isolate you. Kill your addictions before they kill YOU. I don't want your 24th birthday to be your official date of death. Like I've said ... I love you dearly because you are a part of something that brought me so much joy in one of my darkest hours. But, I'm not going to play the pity trip or sugar coat it. That's not going to help. The first step is to comfort and encourage. Once that person has begun to receive treatment and has their senses about them, then comes the scare tactics. Those are the things that are most likely to convince an addict to quit, providing they haven't turned bitter and numb. If saying these things to you will help you beat this PERMANENTLY, then it's worth it. I want you to be so scared of what THAT life can lead to that you NEVER want to see or be around that crap again. You have so many things to live for ... hello ... the Backstreet Boys (You do still like being in the group, don't you?), a beautiful girlfriend (I don't know if you're still with Amanda or someone else, but whatever.), an incredible mother (I mean ... she supports you so much, she used to tour with you on a regular basis ... that's AWESOME!), you DO have the kind of money to make a good life for yourself (Most people have to scrounge.), you DO have the status to make a difference (I would love to be in your position, so I could help more people. That's the only reason I would even want to be rich. I could care less about a $10 million mansion and $500,000 car. I have issues I would love to have the voice to make the government actually listen.) Please!!! Listen to what people that care for you are saying. You have no idea how incredible it makes me feel to find out that I've been able to make a difference in someone's life. My own cousin stopped listening to me three years ago and continues on his downward spiral of drug addiction, crime, and gang activities (whatever they are ... gee I wonder.) It kills me every time my aunt or my mom tells me the latest tale of terror about what Chris has done now. End this dangerous lifestyle while you can still "feel" enough to care about life. I'm sure you're hearing the majority of this "lecture" at rehab, but I want you to hear it from someone who's not being paid to help you or someone who's knowledge on these subjects is solely out of a textbook. I've seen the bottom of the "bottomless" pit, and it's not pretty. You've been thrown a rope. Hold on to it for dear life, honey. All my love **kiss kiss** Tracy (aka Mystery72) --------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Submitted by Rachel Walker from Brisbane Queensland Australia
Date: Mon Jul 16 04:15:07 2001
Dear AJ,
I am touched by your courage and ability to face your demons head on.
The Backstreet Boys,if anything,have picked up MORE fans by your honesty and strength in dealing with this issue.
We appreciate you wanting to use this little episode to help others around the world,but first it must start with you!
Let the wanting to help others come later-right now,the only person's welfare that is paramount, is yours......the fans and others can wait!
Don't let the tabloids get to you either- I'm sure if they could get real jobs,they would!lol
Consider this a test for not only yourself,but for those around you,and notice that only those that matter will still be with you and support you when you emerge from the other side of the tunnel......those that fall along the way should never have begun the journey in the first place-THEY are the weakest of all.
We love you and hope that you can get back on your feet,but please don't do it until you are really ready.
We look forward to seeing you in Australia then.
With love and hugs,
Rachel
xxx~Come to the edge,he said
They said:we are afraid
Come to the edge,he said
They came
he pushed them
and they flew~ ~Faith is a bird that feels dawn breaking,and sings while it is still dark~ ~You are never asked to do more that you are able,without being given the strength and ability to do it~
Submitted by Shalom from Hamilton New Zealand
Date: Mon Jul 16 03:46:01 2001
Hi AJ,
Heard that you were down.Thank you for being such a strong person and for standing up and admitting that you had a problem to show to others that whatever status or whatnot,we are all human and we all have problems.Now that you are getting help I know that you are already getting better each day and with all the support that you are getting from us your fans and of course your wonderful brothers Kev,Brian,Howie and Nick.
May God continue to be with you and with all of us in this time of need.
And just know that we'll be waiting for you when you get well.
All the best wishes to you and your family andthe other BSB.
God Bless
Submitted by ZORA DOROUGH from RIO DE JANEIRO RIO THE JANEIRO, THE WONDERFUL CITY Brazil
Date: Mon Jul 16 03:24:37 2001
aj!!!!!!!!
i love you, baby... i know that you're better now, but i just want you to know that i'm here just to help you!
i really love you...
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